hello darling, its time to wake up now.

Hello Tumblr World,

So it really has been a long time. If you guys know me personally, you know I’ve been blogging via Blogspot for the past almost two years (sorry Tumblr). But recently I got redirected here because of a friend’s page. He frequently writes here and just visiting his page I was reminded why I loved Tumblr so much.

Anyways, I just wanted to write a bit for anyone who cared to read. It’s nothing really important. Just rambling. Another reason why I loved Tumblr, I could ramble. Not really any of my “real life friends” followed me via Tumblr and I could talk about anything without being judged for it. I think that’s kinda nice right cause I feel like EVERYTHING we do or post we get judged for. Well I haven’t written anything lately, not even in my other blog, so this is probably gonna be pretty shitty. But thanks for your time any ways :)

So what’s been up world? With me? Well I’m almost hitting my 2 year anniversary with Japan. In March, so in a couple months, it will be officially two years since I’ve lived here. It’s been, eventful. Lots of things have happened and just thinking about it and looking through photos and past posts, I feel so blessed to be given THIS life. I mean out of all lives God could of given me, He gave me this one. Pretty freakin rad if you ask me. Of course I’ve had some dark spots and low days as well but who doesn’t. I do think I have grown, alot, but not enough yet. I mean it’s never going to be enough. But I have grown, probably more than I know.

I do want to thank the constants in my life though. My family and friends. The ones who have always kept in touch, who have always answered my messages, who have always been an ear for my sob stories and successes; my heart is full because of you all. 

It’s not super late but I’m usually asleep by now. And with it raining out with the thought of sleeping in tomorrow morning, I’m sure I’ll fall asleep soon. But this post was more random than purposeful. Just wanted to drop Tumblr a line and say “I’ve missed you.”

Who knows, maybe you’ll see more of my guts spilt on here this year. It’s kind of like a secret place to release...all the crazy and sane things that happen in my head. Anyways, good morning or good night Tumblr :)

xx

damn i haven't been on my tumblrs in a while. so i recently started a new project. a personal project. so ive kept blogs on my travels and where abouts since 2012. after that year, it was a bit tough for me personally. i really wanted to record all my blog entries and writings into a book, just for me. but with everything that happened that year, i wasn't strong enough to look at those pictures, so i put the project off. 

this year i'm in a new place with a new blog and before i finish off this year here, i wanted to document my writings in a book as well. so as i copied and pasted post after post for my new blog's book, i thought, maybe its time to go back to 2012 and look at those posts. so i did.

i flipped through all the posts, looking at pictures, copying text that i wrote to reread and proof read later. what i realized was that 1) im super blessed and 2) ive got to live many different lives and im so thankful to God for that. 2012 was an easy year and a hard ending. most of those relationships that were important to be then, dont even exist now. its still in the process of forgiving and being forgiven, but i guess its getting some what better that i can at least LOOK at those pictures again. 

and man does my life go through so many changes. i sometimes look at pictures of myself then and think, who is that girl? what was she thinking? etc etc. i've always liked to try new things in my life and be different people and have different lives, im super thankful that Gods actually allowed me to do that. and here i am now, in a completely independent chapter of my life, its SO different from anything i've had before...but everyday, im blessed im allowed it.