i can still feel the love

Tana: I woke up at 6pm today, fell back asleep on my way down to the kitchen to get some food, and just woke up on the couch a few minutes ago....still hungry.

Tana: Bring me food. Please?

Timmy: Fell back asleep on your way down to the kitchen...?Like, did you fall down your steps or something?! Are you okay?

Demi: LOL okay.

Demi: What it looked like was you're getting back together with your ex. Just days after you flew all the way out here to see me. I really thought you were different. But I guess not.

Demi: Wow a lot can change in a few days, huh?

Demi: Congrats on the new girlfriend.

Timmy: It really isn't like that, I promise.

Demi: It does help when I have good people in my life. Especially people by the name of Timothee Chalamet. Amen to that. I can tell you that my life has been anything but boring.

Demi: Stare at them as much as you'd like. I took them for you and only you. I'm way too hot to be real? That's literally what I think every single time I look at you. You're like a perfect marble statue come to life with your perfect fucking jawline. Hurry up and get here so you can check me off of your to-do list.

Timmy: Timothee Chalamet totally realizes how lucky he is to be in your and just exist in your same little bubble in the universe as well.

Demi: It really is fucked. Living under a microscope is something a person can only handle for so long before they go insane. Looking back, I see the bigger picture now and understand how fucked up it all was. But at the same time, I've grown so much and learned so much from it all. I feel like I'm a stronger and better person for it. If anything, I understand where to draw the line and how important boundaries are.

Demi: I'll keep that in mind anytime I feel like I need to convince you of something. But really, I can't wait for you to get here. I'll be perfectly content if I can just lay in bed and cuddle with you all day long.

Timmy: Yeah, it's definitely great that you're able to find a bright spot from all of that. I'm not sure I'd ever be able to be as strong as you are or were. It sucks that you had to learn them under such shitty circumstances, but if we had a choice to take the easy route all the time our lives would be boring.

Demi: Just think of it as your own personal Demi backpack. I'll even carry things for you to make myself more useful, just like an actual backpack.

Demi: I always forget that you and Ansel used to go to school together. So you pretty much know how it feels then. It hurts to grow apart from someone who you were once so close to. Especially for Selena and I. We were inseparable. Always having sleepovers and spending time at each other's houses. I think our teenage years are what really changed us. She started dating Nick and became best friends with Taylor. So I felt replaced in a way. I was also struggling with my own personal demons around that same time, which of course just didn't help in the bigger picture. Just like you said. It is what it is. Thank you. Really. You have no idea what that means to me. You're the sweetest.

Timmy: It just happens. It's normal, you know? What isn't normal is having a wide angle lens on you through every step of your formative years. It's fucked. And what were these people doing ridiculing and judging a literal teenage for going through regular teenage things? I'll never understand the world and why they were so awful to you. You deserve so much better.

Demi: I promise it won't be too much longer now. The moment I see you, I'll jump right into your arms and squeeze you tight. Plus I'll refuse to let go and basically just latch on like a koala. No, definitely not. I've cut ties with all those toxic influences. Nothing but good vibes from here on out.

Demi: Selena and I just have a complicated history. We were the best of friends from the time we were kids starring on Barney together. It continued when we both got gigs with Disney around the same time years later. We just went down different paths, started hanging out with new crowds, and eventually we stopped being friends. There have been a few times we've reconnected over the years. But nothing will ever be the same as it was when we were kids or teenagers. Then when you add in my history with Niall, mix that in with my history with Selena, and it's just a complicated mess. So once again, I'm sorry for pulling you into the middle of it. I have a terrible habit of dragging outsiders into my drama sometimes.

Timmy: That's completely okay with me. I'll just take you around with me wherever I go, home, to the store, to the park, you can be my companion through it all. I'd love nothing more.

Demi: Yes, that's going to need to happen sometime very soon. I've been deprived of Timmy hugs for way too long now. Trust me, you're very different than the other people I've had in my life in the past. You're the furthest thing form a negative influence there is, I'm pretty sure. Especially since your smile is pure fucking sunshine.

Demi: I really am sorry. Things just got out of hand between the couple glasses of champagne I had and everything that happened with Niall and Selena. There's just a complicated history there and I should have known better than to drag you head first into it all.

Timmy: Likewise, I've been deprived of Demi hugs for way waaaay too long now too. I'm glad to hear it. There's no more room for toxic and bad people in our lives anymore, okay? I'm here for you and to be your rock or someone to lean on when you need me to be.

Demi: I am always going to thank you though. I'm lucky to have someone like you on my side. Especially since I've had a hard time trusting some of the wrong people in the past. It's nice to know I have someone as sweet and as kind as you are supporting me always. I just want to hug you right now 🥺

Demi: No but really, I miss you. I know it's been a while. I know things got kind of weird at Saoirse and Ansel's wedding. And I'm sorry for that.

Timmy: I guess we’ll just have to make some arrangements so that you can hug me in person. But really, I understand. I know that you haven’t had some great people around you in the past and I hope to be different from everyone else. If I haven’t made that clear, I’m doing a pretty terrible job.

Demi: You have no idea how happy I was to wake up and see a text from you this morning.

Demi: But wow. Thank you so much. You have no idea what that means to me. Especially coming form you. Thank you for always being in my corner and supporting me 🥺

I do know that. But we all have our days where we’re not as self confident as usual. I’ve struggled with that a lot over the years. But it does help to know that you think so too. It just helps boost my confidence and my ego a little bit more. Seriously? They don’t know what they’re missing. For the record, I enjoy talking to you. You always have something interesting to say and you don’t try too hard. I’ve been on dates with guys where they just try way too hard to push the chemistry when it’s just not there. But with you, I felt it right away. I’m glad I decided to come with you too. I’m always a sucker for a wedding. Mainly for the food and the dancing that takes place. Having a super hot date is just an added bonus. 

I get that. Being confident in yourself is a hard thing to do. Especially when you’re in this line of work. I can’t even imagine how much harder it was on you to have to grow up with all these eyes on you, just watching you through your entire life as you fuck up the way anyone else would. It’s just awful that anyone has to go through that. I’m glad my random rambles can provide you with some entertainment. I haven’t fully gotten my brain to mouth filter fully worked out, so some stupid shit does slip though every now and then. Let’s just move on and pretend it never happened when it eventually does. Plus it helps that it’s in Ireland, huh? This is my first time here, I can tell why Sersh enjoys coming back so often. 

Just so you know, it’s not very hard for you to woo me. I’m already swooning just from you being you. You’re the absolute sweetest. You’re hyping me up and making me feel absolutely beautiful and I’m just living my best life right now. any girl who isn’t into you is crazy, just saying. Why would I not put up with you? I’m having the best night of my life tonight with you.

You’re extremely beautiful and you should know that. Not that you need me to validate that or you or anything, but wow, you’re just gorgeous. I am so lucky. I mean, they may be into me at some point but then I open up my mouth and usually ruin everything from that point forward. I’m glad! I’m glad that you decided to come with me, I know it’s asking a lot of you to go all the way to Ireland for the wedding of someone you don’t even know, but thank you for coming along.

Well now I’ll be looking forward to every single slow song that comes on. I am more than prepared to be whisked off of my feet by you. Well it’s a good thing you haven’t been distracted by them. I’m much hotter than any of them, for sure. Totally kidding. But I am flattered to have your attention in such a way. You know how to give a girl butterflies.

Not to toot my own horn or anything, but I’m going to do everything I can to woo you. You could be kidding but I think it’s the truth. I mean, everyone is beautiful, but no one compares to my bombshell of a date. God, I’m glad you’re actually into it. By this point I would’ve blown all my chances with whoever I’m talking to, but you’re still putting up with me. 

Entertained, impressed, same thing. No but really, you are an amazing dancer and you need to give yourself more credit. I’d choose scrawny old you over just about anybody. These old Irish dudes have nothing on you and they all know it. Pretty sure most of the single girls are hating me right now. I’ve seen them sending me death glares all day long, while also drooling over you.

I will say, I’m a pretty decent slow dancer. My sister is a dancer and I used to be forced to rehearse with her when I was a kid. So whenever a slow song comes on, I’m more than happy to whisk you off your feet. Is that what’s going on? I haven’t even noticed anyone looking. Must be because my eyes have just been glued to you all night. 

I can’t wait until that happens. I’ve only gotten a taste of your dance moves before, and I’m very eager to see more. I have looked around actually, and I still stand by my statement. You look very dashing in your suit and I’ve been swooning over you all night long. Psh, I’ve already dated and Irishmen. Sure, he was cool and we’re still friends. But I’d choose you any day.

Prepare to be... I want to say impressed, but I honestly think you’ll feel more embarrassed than anything else. Damn, you’re gonna choose scrawny old me over any of these hunky Irish dudes? I mean, half of them are probably well over fifty but still, I’m honored. None of them have a date as hot as mine.