Hello

I don't understand why you don't just leave me. I know I don't make you happy, or at least it feels that way, so why are you still here?

I'm fed up with this situation.

I never rant on here but I feel like ranting on Twitter won't do rn, it's the kind of rant that I don't want anyone who knows me irl to see. I'm so fucking sad, I just started school and I survived woooohooo, but I also work and got crazy hours this week and I'm exhausted from life. I have homework already which was expected and it isn't hard or anything but it's a good amount and I have to read two books by next week which I can read like one a day but I don't have the books, they're barely getting shipped. I just feel very stressed out and I don't know how I'm gonna manage work and school and helping my sister, I want to see her grow up beautifully and I'm the only one who can help her but I feel like I can't :( I have all that plus problems with myself and now I feel like my relationship is going to shit as well, and I absolutely hate how I rely on people, especially the person I'm with. He was my best friend before we got together and sometimes I think I messed that friendship up by giving him a chance and I love him so much but I just don't think he's happy or loves me anymore and I'm just so sad... I feel like everything in my life is going to shit and I seem to have no one. I need people so much but maybe this is a sign to stop needing them. I just don't know anything anymore.