rose

and once the branches part. . . ︵‿₊୨

୧₊‿︵ . . .allow my wings to embrace you.

before you proceed, do take note:

this garden will contain mentions of self-harm, disordered thinking, potentially suggestive, and obsessive thoughts. i am not in recovery, it's your own choice to interact.

introduction:

twisted / rose - do not refer to me as anything else.

he / him - i do not mind they/them, strictly no she/her.

20 - if you are younger than 18, i am only comfortable interacting for ask related scenarios.

forever taken by @irotinyourheart - i'm in a closed relationship with my owner. don't flirt or attempt to pursue under any circumstances.

this entire blog is dedicated to my lovely boyfriend/owner. i am extremely devoted and protective over him, as he is of me. do not form romance over me.

currently not seeking out friendships.

my writings will consist of a variety of themes. ranging from soft devotional yearns to violent thrashes of jealousy. there are no exact warnings i can list, even i cannot predict what i may post. self-harm will be a common theme.

my interests include of music, developing fashion, writing, my little pony, headspaces, pottery, and decorating. there are several genres and series i am into, but that'd be. . . quite a long list.

do feel free to send asks/anons, but do not make them in anyway romantic or sexual.

side blog @bbruisedskin

tags:

♫ ⸝⸝⸝ to my beloved . . . dedicated to my boyfriend. ♫ ⸝⸝⸝ sweet melody . . . my writings / yearns. ♫ ⸝⸝⸝ whispering leaves . . . vents / rants. ♫ ⸝⸝⸝ little visitors . . . anons / asks.

it's easy to get lost, slithering branches aiming to grasp your attention. you're safe with me, i won't allow the trees to consume you.

let my light guide you, for it is your only chance at safety.

should you see an exit in the distance, cast your gaze away. we don't need any distractions. why would you ever want to leave?

the warmth that emits from my being is all that you'll ever need. the outside is full of pain, the obstacles that life throws your way. do you truly want to face that?

body consumed by jealousy, i assume the worst. i want nothing more than to observe every action, selfishly seeking reassurance.

the weakness that curls around my bones is familiar. faux alarms screaming in my ears, even when nothing is amiss. this body is filled with flaws, insecurity slipping through the gaps and controlling my actions.

i manage to plaster on a smile, laugh with reluctance, all this an attempt to soften the blow.

it remains futile. no matter how many bandages are placed, it does little to ease the shattering structure beneath. i long for peace, a breath of fresh air.

do you feel the pulse beneath my fingertips? the way it races for you?

my palms tremble with restraint, threatening to tighten my grip and curl my arms around your neck, trapping you in my cage of sweet affections.

you can allow every sorrow to melt with me. you understand that, don't you, my dear? i'm the only one you should rely on, nobody else could possibly handle you.

allow my wings to curl around you, welcoming you with as much softness that i can muster.

each time, it brings me to tears. vomit tickling the back of my throat from how strongly i feel for you.

the numbness i feel around others fades into the background, replaced by a flurry of unrecognizable emotions. it's overwhelming, terrifying.

around others, i push myself to display emotions. putting on a facade, exchanging smiles and laughs, no matter how hollow and bored i may feel inside.

whenever your gaze shifts in my direction, i allow my body to surrender, revealing the fragile doll that i truly am. you see all bits of me; the beautiful, the delicate, and even the wretched.

without you to open the door, i find myself restless. my limbs feel weak, wanting nothing more than to crawl into your lap and allow myself to rest. the collar around my neck feels almost too loose without you to grip the other end.

i cling onto everything that reminds me of you. re-reading our messages over and over, yearning to repeat each conversation we've shared. sobbing to myself, i want nothing more than to

wandering hands travel on their own as i try to mimic your touch. i press my face against my pillow, not allowing my tears to be exposed to the light.

my body yearns for you in ways that cannot be described. the bliss that travels throughout me does little to ease the hollow sensation that follows.

without you, i find myself torturing my skin with red marks of agony. tugging at my hair, crying into the plush that resembles you as my only coping mechanism.

perhaps i'm sensitive for feeling so passionately, wanting to cry even when you're gone for a few simple minutes. i don't enjoy being reduced to a swirl of emotions, yet you manage to turn me into this each time you're away.

it's an instinctual response, to want to be with my owner at all times. you understand it well, don't you? the sickening feeling i imagine would arise if your dearest puppy were to wander off, venturing too deep into the wild without your watchful gaze.

the relief i feel once you return cannot be described. my heart becomes full once more, droopy tail quickly shifting into one that wags with the desperate need for attention.

traveling the streets without a home to return home to. the only thing to feast upon is scraps found in the trash.

it's such a blessing to be owned, completely. others may not understand, call it controlling and throw judgement. i don't feel a care in the world towards those with such a mindset.

my owner is the one i return to, the shelter i seek. crawling towards that light, placing my cheeks in his palms. i'm provided with protection, nourishment, love, everything i adore.

waiting for the day to be locked inside with my owner forever. to have not a worry in the world, to simply do all of my hobbies within our home.

my boyfriendsexual.

i want to know every bit of you, inside and out. i ponder how your heart beats for me, how warm and welcoming it is.

a sacred act, to hold your very essence in my palms. i imagine it'd be so lively, each pump an ode to me.

i promise i'll be gentle, admiring it with delicate fingers that admire every curve and vein. the thought makes me dizzy, imagining such a romantic act that i know could never be performed.

this knowledge wounds me, the fact that i cannot do so. your life would come to an end, even if that were not my intention.

swirling clouds that make it impossible to focus on anything else but the tornado that approaches.

your face spins around me as i become the eye of the storm, surrounded by everything that reminds me of you. it's enough to take my breath away, blissfully overwhelmed by you.

such deadly weather is enough to scare off bystanders, those running for their lives, seeking safety. that's just how i like it. let them flee, it's just the two of us.

stray cat ♡

wildcat ♡

purring ♡

sunbathing ♡

scratching ♡

meowing ♡

claws ♡

whiskers ♡

collar ♡

night vision ♡

i love u my angel ^__^

HELLOOO MY LOVE! i love youuuu i love you so much okay let me.

house cat. . . gosh omg okay. i reallyyy like ANY attention from you. i think that's super obvious though. i do love how you listen to everything i say no matter how random it may be. i honestly already have all of your attention so i just sit still and look pretty, seems to be working... ^3^

stray cat. . . GOSH okay so. i do get very jealous very easily. i haven't really had too many issues with it yet! i think. i mean, i just start to feel physically sick and anxious whenever i get jealous, it does make me act impulsively. uhh like, i'd probably harass people i thought were trying to flirt with you. UM GOSH isolate isn't the right word, i'd just start getting very defensive and like, try to drive your attention back to mmmeee.

wildcat. . . gulp. honestly the only ones i can say on here are the more violent ones. i want to be the one who kills you in the end and then myself, i want youuu to cut myself for me, lowkey me and you blowing up everyone i work with, ummm. gosh i don't know, tumblr is not the place to share.

purring. . . gift giving, if that wasn't obvious enough. i really, really like being able to bake for you or um. just coming up with cute stuff that reminds me of youuu ^o^ planning out stuff to give you makes me SUPER SUPER HAPPY!!! it makes me love you so bad i love you i love you hi i love you.

sunbathing. . . watching one of my favorite movies together with small snacks, mindlessly watching while curled up together. orrr watching a new movie so i can analyze and talk about it afterwards. OR watching a really, really bad movie that we just make fun of the whole time. i really like staying home and watching movies. is it obvious guys.

scratching. . . honest to god i lowkey don't cope at all. you already know i just grab the blade and go to town. but iiii don't do it without permission so crashing out in our messages or my doc does the trick for me. ^o^

meowing. . . i don't like replying or talking a whole lot to anyone, so me yapping your ears off is the biggest sign eva. i loveee writing about you, this whole account is dedicated to you of courseee. or in your doc. that's how i really show my love the most, i think!!! i just really love talking to you and sharing everything about my day and blahhhh.

claws. . . like. by obstacles i'm going to assume people trying to flirt or something. GOSH okay! okay. instantly i'd just get super, dupa upset about it. i'd usually run it by you first, but i'm not gonna lieeee i'd probably just start harassing whoever it may be. i don't care i don't care i would make whoever even tried want to explode bruhhhh. I DON'T CARE! umm also yea if you cheated you're literally dead no questions asked. i'm so serious i don't even want to think about it. either dead or knocked out and tied to something idk so i can beat you up again and again. ^o^ i love youuu i don't want to even think about that happening ughhh i know you wouldn't ever

whiskers. . . me and you are merged together. don't even PLAY!!! i'm an open book, ask and i'll answer. i'm so seriousss babyyyy ask me anythinggg. i belong to you entirely. ^o^

collar. . . i'd say i'd kill someone, which is true, but realistically my ass is getting beat so quickly. IT'S THE DREAM!!! a very true and real fantasy, i could tryyy. more realistic answer is that i'd harass anyone you want. gosh.

such warmth you provide me with, the golden hue that rains down on my skin.

you are the sun flowers face, seeking nourishment that only you can provide. my entire being orbits around you, the center of my world.

i feel safe under your shimmering light, your mindful gaze. you offer such a comforting presence, a haven for me and me alone.

obedient to your warmth, my petals unfurl, blooming in your direction.

i rly like your theme! :0 i read in ur intro that u like fashion- what would u call urs-??

thank you for the ask.

i'm not too sure how to describe my style myself, in all honesty. you may reference my pinterest board if you'd like.

slashing at my skin, watching the familiar crimson beads begin to form. i smile to myself, even as i begin to feel rather faint.

it's quite a pleasant feeling, even more so knowing that my blood will settle in your body soon enough. i pinch at my skin, allowing droplets to fall down into the dough beneath me.

these cookies were made with my very essence. what's more romantic than consuming the very thing keeping me alive? i feel giddy at the thought your fangs sinking into my baking.

. ݁𓇼 pearlescent . ݁ ༺

. ݁𓇼 selkie . ݁ ༺

. ݁𓇼 anadromous . ݁ ༺

. ݁𓇼 earth’s surface . ݁ ༺

. ݁𓇼 the moon . ݁ ༺

. ݁𓇼 blue whale . ݁ ༺

. ݁𓇼 the depths . ݁ ༺

. ݁𓇼 plankton . ݁ ༺

^_^

hii baby! hi i love you. I LOVE YOU!

mariana trench. . . just about anything. in an ideal world, i'd cut off and kill everyone. but i do have to be realistic, i can't cut off most because they hold some use for me- as in, free favors. i'd also absolutely harass anyone you'd want of course. or just stay silent and not do anything. GOSH, i'm a very violent person you knowww this. i dream about killing your manager, just by the way.

pearlescent. . . IT'S SO HARD TO CHOOSE. i love everything about you. i am super, super happy our personalities blend together really well, and that you put in the same amount of effort as me. i love that you're as insane as me and don't baby my "coping" mechanisms.

selkie. . . ahh, i mean... both? depends on whether you're with me or not. you make me feel so, so safe and free to be myself whenever we're together. the second you're away for too long, i feel like i'm shutting down and going batshit insane. i guess i do also feel very puppybrained whenever you're with me, GOSH. it's so hard to describe, i can either be very sillypilled with you or tweaking out and acting more impulsive than usual.

anadromous. . . you're the only one i've pursued truly for a whileeee. someone who makes me feel truly loved, doesn't expect me to be dominant for them, doesn't have a savior complex about my "methods", fun and silly personality, attractive, then i'm falling. i literally just described you, by the way. you're my type. my type is my boyfriend.

earth’s surface. . . oh, i'm still not mellowed out about you. i think it depends on if my feelings are accepted or not. youuu consume my every thought, i never shut up about you. there are some nights where i just need you horribly, where that silly headspace of mine activates. you already know about that. ^o^ i still get that, regardless of if i'm in the mood or not. it's just not as intense if i'm not in the mood. does that make sense, sob.

the moon. . . EVERYTHING! i was hooked onto you from the start. when i say it's fate, i'm so serious. whyyy else do you think we're so perfect for each other? you're the perfect match to me, that's all i can say. from appearance, to personality, to everything.

blue whale. . . you absolutely cannot try to distance me from my sibling. i don't care much about anyone else, but omfg. the thought makes me sooo upset.

the depths. . . you can see everything, i'm an open book. i'm shy about it, absolutely, but i'll still work up the courage to spill everything. you're aware of every thought i've had so far. you wouldn't have my account if i wanted to keep any of this a secret! i share everything too soon, if anything.