not many things in life will make you feels as happy as rediscovering songs that used to be a big part of your life

Want je moet de dagen plukken, maar wat als er geen bloemen staan?

Charlotta Maria Hauksdotti, Topography Study V, 2017

self destruction really is such a fascinating human response to various factors both external and internal. what if sisyphus could leave at any time but kept rolling the boulder up the hill just to watch it roll back down anyway. what if he kept pushing it even as the rock cut into his palms and his legs began to ache with the desire to rest for even a moment and his body became a canvas of bruises and cuts that never have time to heal. what if he did it because it's the only thing he knows how to do. the only thing that gives him a sense of certainty and control in a world that takes both and offers neither.

& needless to say this trait is a lot more fun to observe in fiction than it is in you. or your mother.

probably one of the happiest sounds is when your pet comes running for you and you can hear the little pat pats of their feet on the floor