⋆ how to "actually use" awake methods !
i've recently been doing research on why awake methods seem to be "ineffective" for me and using tarot cards to get deeper personal insight on what i should do differently and instead i ended up exploring a rabbit hole on spirituality and meditation.
i feel that maybe this resonates for many people and could be really helpful in allowing yourself to successfully shift; during awake methods sometimes you may be deep into your attempt and suddenly get a gut feeling that "nothing is working" or even a sudden deep urge to open your eyes and confirm that "you're still here", the best way i could describe this is as for example: i may be affirming that i am present in my intended reality constantly and within a good amount of minutes of doing so my thoughts will strongly waver towards disproving that and completely counterarguing it, trying desperately to remind me that i am still in my cr or that i should open my eyes. a sort of huge wave of disappointment.
this is whole experience in meditation is named by many different terminologies in the spiritual community such as: "the ego self" or in other words "the guardian" (rudolf steiner’s esoteric teachings) and it refers to your engrained beliefs that you learn based off of your experiences in this original reality, it's an attempt for your consciousness to make logical sense of the sudden loss of control and the shift that is beginning to take place.
⋆𝜗𝜚 ࣪⊹ here's a diagram from meditation teachings that show the different phases:
(i'll probably go into more depth on this diagram on another post) !
it means that you are actually approaching and are close to shifting or if anything your "attempt" is working so deeply that as a result you're threatening your own beliefs of what physical reality is, who and where you are so much so that you've awaken or encountered (3.4.3) your "ego", a self defense to make sense of everything. you're rewriting your identity as a being and that is seen as a threat your physical body and so it desperately tries to make sense of this experience. it's not a flaw it's actually an attempt at your self trying to protect yourself from the unfamiliar.
this is important and where shifters say "let go" or have "patience" it applies here, do not fight the doubts or insecurities that come, persist in the feeling of knowing you are shifting and surrender to it, acknowledge each urge but understand that it does not defy nor control your abilities, remember that you are more than your physical self, take each thought as a wave count to 30 if you need to, the longer you persist and do not fight but rather alchemize these thoughts, the more they'll quieten until they become nothing and gradually you'll enter a deeper state and sink, losing awareness of your reality each time.
you are able to shift with doubts. you do not have to fight them, you have to acknowledge them and realise you hold more power. each time you fight them the more power you give these thoughts and the less you'll allow yourself to flow.
at certain point you'll reach a deep meditative state where you're free of any thoughts and your doubts do not seem as having much power, you're unaware of your surroundings and completely free of anything, free of expectations of what reality is and what we're "able to do" and most importantly free of any reality. that is when grounding affirmations can redirect your subconscious completely to another reality.
so anytime you've taken a shifting awake method attempt and felt "nothing is working" remember you were closer than you think.
hopefully this is helpful!
(again this is my own theory lmao based off of shadow work, shifting is individual entirely so.)
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