Ojos Color Cafe

a lot of people are on paid time off so schedules are being moved around.

there were talks of me being moved off at least saturday as we got two new producers (i think one of them can make the switch by now). but that hasnt happened and no one has pulled me to talk about it again either.

our 6am show is being revamped and i’ll be off of it the next two weeks.

this and that. but i can’t help but feel to always be put in second place to a white man and a white woman here.

and im never going to sell out to management so i can move up. and im never going to throw other people of color under the bus to get ahead.

if i knew then my dad would transition from this life into the next... i would’ve spent more time with him at the hospital. even make an effort to visit him actually. my sister and mother were there every day. by them doing that the rest of us were able to keep working and “going on” about our lives.

an incredibly stressful time it was for us, it still is now that we’re dealing with grief. i made sure to thank my sister for all her love and hard work towards our sick father.

a part of me was constantly angry, and work would keep my mind occupied. this way i didn’t have to deal with what was going on around me.

but now that he’s gone, i get triggered especially working in the news industry where a lot of death and destruction happen both provoked and naturally.