Where am I now?

When You Look at Dr. Grace

i used to think he was just being a bitch for no reason but to be honest i think if i had to put up with this id be pissy too

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A sort of continuation of this comic. Please read for more in depth explaination for how I headcanon his fusion mutation with the Blood Eel and the Last Seed works: [ tomorobo-illust.tumblr.com/post/817412005669601280/see-hi-res-version-here ]

Simon has his days where his fears and temper gets the better of him, especially regarding the mutation and how he doesn't have control of his own body. He tried to remove all the teeth from his face, but they keep growing back.

Grace does his best to help Simon cope with the changes. Eventually, Simon accepts the teeth are a part of him now. He doesn't like it, but he learns to live with it. On top of growing tired of fighting the mutation, he doesn't want to worry Ryland or put even more burden on him with his problems.

Meanwhile, Grace is relieved Simon isn't hurting himself anymore. Also he thinks the teeth are neat. Weird, but NEAT.

Casually adding this ask here because @aweebshitdrawings' question fits close enough to what I made here owo Thank you so much for enjoying my work!!

Simon was dead. 

He was dead and he was in fucking hell. 

The last thing he remembered was the sub exploding. Or maybe imploding. It wasn't like he could see what happened, so he had to assume it was exploding. 

Every orifice was clogged with thick, oozing blood. His ears, his mouth, his nose. His eyes were squeezed shut, and he knew if he opened them he'd probably only see red.  Every wheezing, aching breath tasted of iron, and he swore he was sucking in more blood than air. He practically choked on it, but never seemed to be drowning. 

That's how he knew he was dead. He was somewhere deep at the bottom of the blood ocean, his corpse mutating into something unrecognizable. He was more relieved than anything to be dead and in hell than alive and cognizant of whatever religious bullshit he'd been dealing with before. At least he hadn't succumbed to that…that hive mind shit. 

He was floating, too. Which was a pretty damn good indicator of being dead. People didn't float. He was sure fucked up blood mutations didn't float either. 

His clogged senses were something of a blessing. He couldn't hear the taunting of voices or the gurgles of unknown creatures lurking. Just his muffled heartbeat. 

His heartbeat? 

Simon was pretty certain that he shouldn't have that. Since he was dead and all. 

He hastily reached up to wipe at the blood and muck obscuring his eyes and nearly slipped off of whatever he'd been clinging to. One of his arms - right, there had been that whole fucked up thing where he's pretty sure it got ripped off. Definitely don't think too hard about that, Simon. 

He managed to tug himself a bit further onto the makeshift raft he was on, attempting again to clean his face and eyes of blood. It was caked on so thick it made no difference. No light peeked through, but if he had to guess that had more to do with this fucked up moon than the blood itself. He could feel thick rivulets of the stuff running down his face, quickly squeezing his eyes shut to avoid blinding himself further. 

So he was….alive. For the most part. Now that the fact of it was settling in, Simon realized how much his body fucking ached. 

His head, his face, every bare surface of skin. He ached and burned all over, the pain only dulled by it having been so constant. His arm - the one he wasn’t supposed to be thinking about at all - ached in a way that he was pretty certain meant it was no longer functioning. Or there. Which, yeah, that ….that made sense. 

The thought had him gagging, but he swallowed back what he could, shaking his head a little. 

“Fuckin’ - don' fuckin’ puke…..Don' puke. Puking ‘s gonna make this a thousan’ times worse”  he muttered, the blood so thick in his ears that his voice sounded muffled even to himself. Speaking felt like trying to get his mouth around a bite full of jelly, his tongue clumsy with the sheer amount of blood on it. 

God, he hoped he hadn’t swallowed too much already. Simon didn't exactly wanna end up becoming a religious-freak-monster if he could help it. Though, if he kept floating around like this for long enough he was sure he would.  

He was beginning to resign himself to floating in blood for eternity when something big splashed into the blood next to him. 

The waves it caused washed over him, sending him tumbling and choking into the blood, his grip on his makeshift life raft failing and slipping. He fought against the torrent of disturbed blood, barely managing to get his head above this surface, every limb fighting to keep him afloat. He sucked in a choked, gasping breath, desperately writhing in an attempt to not immediately begin sinking again. 

Somehow, between the bloody waves and the lack of enough limbs to fight the force of the current, Simon managed to keep himself afloat for long enough to realise what was happening.

He was being rescued. 

They had come back for him. They had come back for him and were trying to save him. 

Fuck trying to save humanity, he wanted out. He wanted to live. 

They were rescuing him and he'd be damned if he missed this opportunity. He managed to flail his way to the object that had splashed down, his fingers scrambling against the smooth surface for a moment before catching on what felt like some sort of opening. It hissed and fell open, Simon scrambling to climb inside. It was tiny and cramped, and he somehow felt like it wasn't meant to fit a whole person. 

Maybe it wasn't a rescue, then, but a retrieval. 

He tried not to think too hard about what they’d be retrieving. 

Blood nearly filled the small space, Simon only just able to keep his head, mouth and nose above the surface of the thick liquid, his shuddering, painful breaths filling the small space. If not for the blood in his ears, the echoing of it might have driven him crazy. 

The opening he'd crawled through suddenly closed, the little light he'd been using to navigate suddenly cut off as it sealed shut. 

Rescue or not, Simon had made his choice. 

Not even a second later, he was being lifted. 

Blood sloshed inside the small space, Simon gasping and coughing as he was forced to hold his breath, attempting to stabilize himself with his remaining arm as he was jostled. 

His head hit one of the walls, sending exploding pain throughout his entire skull. One more concussion couldn't hurt, surely. 

He gritted his teeth against the pain, spitting blood and viscera from his mouth, trying his damndest to just breathe and hold on. 

He was being rescued, whether they liked it or not. He was alive. And they wouldn't be pulling a damn corpse out of this thing. 

And that was the last thought he had before his head slammed into the wall again and he was out like a light. 

–-----

When he came to, his skull was thrumming with pain, wave after wave of blinding ache making his stomach rolled with nausea. 

His sense were still fucked - his ears and nose clogged with blood, his mouth tasting of the thick, foul substance. His eyes were caked in it, but when he peeked them open a little, he could see light. A lot of light. 

More than he’d had in the sub, even. 

It almost was like- 

Something blocked the light out a bit, a presence just in front of him. He jolted back, scrambling backward until his back was pressed against some sort of wall. 

There was sound, muffled and garbled. Simon shook his head in an attempt to clear the blood from his ears, wiping at his eyes. 

It was still mostly just light, his eyes filled with blood and unable to focus. 

Bright, white light made him squint, the red film over his eyes doing little to subdue it. Like it had some sort of supernatural source. 

Whatever had blocked the light out before did so once more, a figure taking shape, their head haloed perfectly by the light. 

His ears were still clogged, but he managed to pick out the garbled words. 

“....Hail Mary….fjej…Grace…”

The words made his blood run cold. Of fucking course this was some religious fucking bullshit again. 

Simon scrambled for something-anything to defend himself with. 

At best, it wouldn't even be real. A hallucination in his final moments. At worse, it was another fucking religious freak trying  to get him to do God-knows-what. 

His hands managed to close around something sharp and metallic on the floor next to him, fingers slipping a bit in the thin film of blood that coated it. 

He managed to get his feet under him and launched himself at his assailant, ignoring the muffled protests against him. 

He thrust the sharp object forward, shockingly connecting with something soft and squishy. 

So it was real, and was likely a religious freak to boot. 

He and his assailant tumbled to the ground, a muffled cry of pain escaping their lips, Simon’s hand slipping on the sharp object when he tried to pull it out. It clattered to the ground beneath them, Simon reeling back to punch instead. 

There was a muffled cry of pain when he managed to land one, and he swore he picked up what sounded like a plea to not hurt them. 

He stopped fighting for just a moment, the garbled plea making his breath catch. Religious freak or not, he shouldn't be- he wasn't- 

Something huge and heavy slammed into his side, sending him tumbling to the floor again. 

It jostled his aching head, his ribs cracking painfully upon landing. 

More muffled sounds, more garbled pleas, and something like music. 

Fuck, maybe he was dead. 

Simon didn't move for fear of whatever had slammed into him hitting him again, his breaths coming out wheezing and aching, his head throbbing. He shouldn't have done that - it wasn't a hallucination, he was supposed to be better than that. He wasn't violent. He didn't mean to. He wasn't the butcher. 

He sucked in a sharp, painful breath when something touched him. A hand- it felt like. 

It gently squeezed his arm, a garbled voice calling out to him again, hardly clearer than before. 

“...okay!...just….’s alright!...cky- ….understand?”

Simon sucked in another painful lungful, shaking his head a bit, barely opening his eyes to see the figure. 

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Inspired by and dialogue taken from this post by @the-nerd-beast:

*𝑩𝒆𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆 𝑬𝒍𝒑𝒊𝒔*