“صبرا يا نفسي..” patience, O my soul..

when did i become a problem instead a person

being self-aware doesn’t stop the spiral, it just means i get to watch it happen and hate myself for it.

[taps my chest] this bad boy can fit so much love and fear and compassion and anxiety and tenderness and grief and empathy and heartache and capacity for affection and loss etc in it

one thing about me is i'm always going to need #mynothing. sometimes I do just want to lay in bed curled up and not speak for a few hours.

being raised by adults who were always angry at you means becoming an adult who’s always angry at yourself

up at 3am googling how do i break out of a repetitive cycle that both comforts and harms me

this is not what i deserve, so this is not what i will settle for

People really underestimate the power of just telling someone you like them. romantically obviously but hell even just platonically too. You can admit you enjoy peoples presence it doesn’t have to be mind games it’s okay to just be sincere and true with your thoughts and intentions btw

i love turning off lights. no need for all that

“No one is coming to save you.” I disagree ! I believe many people made up of many small moments come to save pieces of you , even if just briefly. The mentor who believed in you . The friend who said they’re proud of you. The family member that makes you laugh . The random person who held the door for you out of nothing but kindness. The teacher who took extra time to help you understand. The person who smiled at you when you walked into a store. The little kid who looks up to you. The person who randomly complimented you. Being “saved” isn’t about being whisked away and all your hardships gone, it’s about the people and things that remind you life is not all hardships, it is kindness, love, gentleness, softness, care, thoughtfulness. It is many moments made up of your lifetime that keeps you going and showing you the world is still beautiful, and will always be. Despite.

it has gotten better before. it will get better again. and again and again and again.

mid life crisis ? no no, mid DAY crisis. happens every day

Your 20s are not about anything and your 30s are not about anything and your 40s... also not about anything

hey google how do i stop longing for that which i cannot have