Puzzles w/out Pieces

I was sitting on a rock,on a cliff, meditating. On a Saturday afternoon after a late Friday night out drinking whiskey with my girls. #afrogirls #blackhair #twa #shorthair #womenwithshorthair #letabaldbitchprosper #tapercuts #meditation #life #friends #fun #balance #hair #redhair #orangehair #copperhair #mountains #bakeovenknobmountain #bakeovenknob #mountains #vibes #energy #tigerseye #aunaturale #naturalhair #kinksandcurls #4b #4c #4a

Last year I let the negativity get the best of me I began to realize the lord was testin me So I vowed to get my mind right keep my body and spirit protected And now I'm looking at things with a new perspective I Can't give to those who only take and I can't love on those who love to fake The funk Like fake pumps And even though I can't shake them I gotta be able to point em out and segregate them. I need to Show more love to those who love me That type of love is starting to grow on me I can't fixate on things I can't beat and there's no success in situations where I cheat Gotta stay grounded and keep from gettin tripped up, can't get caught slippin up I'm ever so cautious of those screaming trust me If it sounds fishy it's cuz they must be Trustin someone to have my back makes me uncomfortable Still Daring for an opportunity to be vulnerable If I take this step or make this left What's the chance of me being right? these lessons learned are memories still haunting me Leavin reminders only I can see But I gotta Unload the baggage and leave it where it happened my future cant go where my past's been The Struggle with manifesting my ideas into realities Is Tryna find balance between my dreams and reality. my preoccupation to save myself from who I feared becoming Is the culprit of why I became stagnant It's hard coming to terms with things not going as expected I'm Learning to accept the blend of me who's manifested. life's tight rope is daring me to drop my crown Lord if I lose sight Give me strength to not fall down I been lost before came back and conquered more I crowned myself they can't knock me down I will not fall down

A crown for the young queen 👑

Workout finished .. Now work 😏

Squats payin off 😜

22🎂🎉

A few days from 1 year natural 🙌 #blackhair #naturalhair #afro #kinkycurly #girlswithcurls #bigchop #1yearnatural #4ahair #4bhair #4chair #blackisbeautiful #myblackisbeautiful #blackgirlsrock #naturalista #embraceyourself

Im always good.. Like grandma's cookies.

And they say I've changed? 😄 15 then , 21 now .

Circa 2008

I wonder how long we're gonna do this dance. I've contemplated that I could be the only one dancing. Maybe your movements are a figment of my overly excited imagination. But then I'd have to be a lil crazy right? Dreaming of you nonstop, surveying your every move when I muster up the courage to stare at you long enough.. See I haven't been true either. I find myself looking at other men with lust ... But that's all it is, lust. I chastise myself for doing so. But the other me asks how can I devote so much to you when I don't get the same from you. They say to never let go of your dreams. And I won't. But I find it harder to believe when my reality conflicts so much with my dream. They've become so black and white. No grey area in sight. Or is it because it's not how I dreamt it be that I'm not recognizing the love growing between.. What a nice user you are. I've realized I've done a lot more for you then you've ever done for me. I'm ashamed to be used, but at the same time I find pride in saying I've always been there for you to lean on. Back to this dancing. I'm going in circles not even sure if you're following suit. Oh I'm dancing.. I just hope you catch my stride and follow me into this blissful love I imagine us getting lost in. See I'm so stuck on our love because I remember so vividly when it blossomed. A flower that never got the chance to grow? It was my fault.. Selfishness I know. I know through the years I've changed, some for the good and others for the bad. So in truth you must have done the same. I'm just hoping that the love we blossomed somehow left a seed to be planted again. Maybe from this beginning we'll grow into out potential. At least I hope so. But I'll keep dancing if it's the closest I'll get to you. I'll keep dancing. Nd I'll keep dreaming, if that's the only way I'll get to you.

When you put ya weave back in after a month and some change rockin ya natural 💁💅💙💙