apoetgirl

Soooo... ☺ #whatsgood

I think this is just my year. To discover, love, create, and just be myself. I want to allow others to be themselves even if it's means we no longer speak. I want nothing but the best for the people arround me, and even those who aren't. I wish to keep myself whole this year. No breaking, cracking, shattering. I want to better myself for the people around me. I want to create for the people around me. I need there to be balance. I need the energy to remain positive even if the journey is stressful. I will keep peace around. Conflict is low on my list of things to bring into my space. But I am open to learning and mending. I am open to correcting the situations that need that kind of attention. I feel that right now in this moment anything is possible. The Me that I am trying to coax out of hiding is going to need a positive future. This is me absorbing (or trying to).🌻🌿🌾 #keepitlight #learninghow #glowup

Today I wrote in my planner. Chose to get serious about my finances. Decided I am in full control. I am not hollow. I am very, very full. #gettingthingsdone #haveapositiveweek #confess #love2018

Today I decided to forgive (me) you. Not because you apologized, or because you acknowledge the pain you caused me, but because my soul deserves peace. ~ Najwa Zebian

In the last few days, I have learned so much about myself. I have learned how relationship statuses can change in a minute. I have learned the true value of thinking… by recalling times when I didn't and knowing how unexpected the results were. I learned that you are never fully an adult. I am only cracking into what being an adult means, but I know that to become completely anything leaves no room for change. I don't want to stay the same. I don't want to be what everyone expects me to be. I know I can't react the way people want me to. I am an aggressive person. Some people know that, others do not. I show that side of myself only when I feel like I should. I am a very hardworking person. I know that, others know that. I am a good listener and I hate it. I don't share my thoughts with anyone other than my best friend. She is the only person on the planet who has ever understood me. She has talked me off many ledges. She has convinced me over and over again that I deserve to be alive, that I deserve companionship, happiness, and so much more. I deserve the possibility of a future. I don't deserve this pain I have been putting myself through. Not communicating the things that I want because I am more concerned with someone else's happiness. More concerned with someone else's reaction to my choices. I have been afraid to live my life the way I've been wanting to for so long, because I was scared that no one would want to deal with such an emotional train wreck. And I'll be honest, I was right, people don't want to deal with such an emotional train wreck. Because I didn't either. I didn't want to deal with myself. I didn't want to love myself. And it took me such a long time but I can't say that I do love myself today. Today I am committed to everything I know I am, to everything I know I can be, will be with work. This is the relationship I am committed to. I am the primary lover. 🌿🌾🍃🌻 #sayiloveyou

I love myself! There, I said it.🌾🍃🌳🌻 #wildmorning

Come out and meet this amazing poet!!

Come on out poetry people. Do you want to😎 #poetry #poetrycommunity #poetryslam #cashslam #batonrouge #batonrougeevents #tuesday #eclectictruth #comeon #freereading #poems (at Arts Council of Greater Baton Rouge)

Should I keep smashing or nah???

But I'd still like for you to say it.

You are soil, growth, harvest and the fruit that feeds me. Don't ever forget.

This her is what my soul sounds like

I am working on getting closer to my best self. However my best self, and who I am today are very far apart. We are separated by age, by wisdom and knowledge, by taist and perception. My best self loves me, I am working on loving her back. I am working on accepting that she will come and go through trials. Right now, I know that I can't wait to look into the mirror and see you again. It's been so long...💙💙💙 #selfcare

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