TraviDÜV

If I over or under qualify this I valuable understanding with "good" or "bad" I waste the value of understanding this entirely and get lost to polarity and become blind by large margins. I can't see black from white or blue from red at all if I stay grey and purple hearted without you all .

And I'm not blending the faiths

The mystery of saints is of more value than the mystery of the heathen mud.

But the gods and guides and spirits don't reward my disrespect and I don't get to dance with others around the fire or have cool tattoos.

I sit in the dark of thought avoidant and strong against what looks like long and slow bleeding caused by a I'm social engineers and control over the reward center and generational fear of the end of days...

So I guess forward and backward,

Afraid of the value of birth and death... We forget we need out of the sun just as much as we need to stand under the sun. Because what a fucking stranger builds alone and what the closest friend can't build without you matter more than anything you ever did on your own.

Tap your toes,

Tie ribbons and bows,

And blessed be that we made merry.

Only in one case or maybe two do I feel some sort of "understanding" about it...

People set bait with expressing interest...

Interest is a currency of zero value when attention is what we are really after.

I want the interest. I can keep your attention.

If I spill too much at least that spill is something to be built upon and isn't intended as anything final and concrete.

If I virtue signal and identify it's to protect the core of what is to me a representative picture existent behind words.

The words are literally my finger painting pictures for you like you're my parent and I want it hung on the fridge.

If you crumble it up and throw it away I do see you as a fucking monster.

I am factually a child.

Non mandatory meeting attendance and perhaps validation of my involvement in the recovery community past simply "I have to be here or I have to do this"