Exploration of Jin-woo’s loss of emotions.
The only emotion he doesn't lose is the love for his family?
Is he hyperfocusing on keeping his family safe to say that he still feels love?
In which, Jin-woo loses all emotions, but he still cares. Or at least, he wants to.
When he comes home late at night, he doesn't expect Jin-ah’s worried figure pacing the halls. He doesn't expect when she comes up to punch his shoulder, only to reel back with a, “Ugh, you stupid Hunters!”
“Did I do something wrong?” his head tilts as he takes in the view of their cleaned apartment. Nothing was amiss.
She looks at him, stunned. “Its 4 in the morning. You left two days ago.”
The fridge was stocked before he left. Nothing was set to expire, he double checked. He told her he would be leaving for a while. None of his soldiers indicated that something happened.
“You really don't understand, do you? Or are you just fucking with me?”
“Don’t swear…” he finds himself saying. Mother wouldn't want her to swear. “Don’t you have school tomorrow?”
“Today?” she scoffs, “Yes. I do have school. And you need to start texting me more.”
He texts her often. More often than anyone else. “I’m a bit confused. Why are you so upset with me?”
Jin-ah gives him a strange look. Her eyes are glistening with tears. Was she about to cry? What did do?
“You can't just… leave like that for so long. Especially with no contact. I thought- I thought,” she takes in a stuttering breath, refusing to let tears fall, “I didn't know if you were coming back. I didn’t know if you up and died somewhere or if you… left.”
Oh. So like father. “Jin-ah, I would never do that. I just got sidetracked was all.”
“That’s it? That’s your apology?”
What was there to apologize for? Ugh. This is why he prefers fighting. At least then-
At least then he wouldn't have to deal with emotions. The thing he is currently not feeling.
Oh he hadn't expected the system to affect him so deeply. It was supposed to just be a way to get stronger. A way to protect himself. A way to get money for food, rent, and Jin-ah’s college.
It wasn't supposed to change him.
“No,” she interrupts him, “I’m going to bed. Goodnight,” she trods off into her room.
“…Goodnight,” he says after her door has been slammed shut.
He cringed. He would text her more often. But about what?
He retreats into his room. The only thing that could beat him was his own sister, after all. The house feels colder somehow. Maybe she forgot to turn the heat on? For some reason, he doesn’t think that's quite right.
He shuts his door gingerly. His phone feels heavy in his pocket.