dumbass

Like I've been transitioning for over a decade, but to me, being a woman wasn't the end goal, but a means to an end - a necessary stopping off point.

It's not a detransition in a traditional sense, I'm not cis - I never was, but rather I'm moving through a process. Like I made a clay pot and then before putting it in the kiln, I dig a bunch of rocks and shit that I missed out of the clay, ruining this pristeen surface I've created - and intentionally leave behind divots and marks, and knowing that all of the fingerprints of my later modification will be clear to see on the pot after it comes out of the kiln.

It quickly becomes an obsession for the girl to stay better, eventually she tracks down the tgirls handle online and discovers her Tumblr blogs... And her horny side blog...

Following the transfemme supremacy tags is just for research... Right?

She has to focus... Her roommate is in the shower right now, maybe she can find her study guides in her room. Maybe in this drawer she keeps... Her Fleshlight!

That's so gross... But...why then is she getting wet.. imagining her roommate's thick gock... Pumping..

She hears the door open and spins around too fast. The Fleshlight is thrown across the room and accidentally lands in the bin for the tgirls needles, destroying the sensitive material

Fuck fuck fuck... She's going to be furious... Maybe I can make it up to her...

of course i could never love you if you were a boy. i'm a lesbian, sweetheart, you've known this about me since day one. i love women. it's a big part of what i love so much about you: how pretty and feminine you are. you really are the perfect girlfriend. honestly, honey, if you tried to take that away from me? i don't think our relationship would survive. hell, i don't know if we could even be friends after that.

which is why i'm so lucky i've got such a pretty girlfriend, right? so soft and cute and kissable...

Then all of the sudden they say "if you cum, I'm going to make you detransition for real." They don't let up, rubbing my clit faster and faster as I try to question what they mean in between moans.

"If you cum" they explain, "then this doesn't get to just be a fantasy anymore. I'm going to make you into a girl again if you want me to or not." They can't help but smirk as my hips jolt at their words.

They go on go explain in detail how they'll detransition me step by step, using all my fantasizes against me and abusing my poor clit. I, of course, assume this is all just play. There's no way they could be serious, and I'm very much enjoying the fantasy. I'm so wet there's a puddle beneath me, and it doesn't take long until I'm cumming so hard I see white. Now that the scene is done, I'm waiting for my partner to untie me, but they don't.

Normalize pretty trans icons that inspired a new generation of trans girls completely transforming into perverted, transphobic dude bros.

Normalize girls that started hrt early and never finished male puberty going off estrogen and letting their real adult body finally develop.

Yes this is from personal experience. Yes I used to be a slightly well known trans Internet personality. No, I'm certainly not anymore :)

sometimes i wanna panick/nope out, 'what have i done' kind of feelings

but it's too late for that

im a boy now, and that's all there is to it

(and it makes my dick so hard)

every time she tells me im not a girl anymore 😵‍💫

This is a blog dedicated to YOU feminizing me!

(MDNI, I don't send and don't want you to send, I'M TAKEN)

There will be frequent, varied and creative games, polls, and more! Here are my current stats:

Hair: Shoulder length

Eyebrows: done (fem)

Facial hair: shaved until march 31

Daily makeup: None

Daily jewelry: None

Chest: Shaved

Genitals: Shaved

Legs: Shaved

Nails: Long and red ♥️

Toe nails: painted pink

Clothing style: Masc/androgynous.

(Starting stats here!)

Current rules:

I must edge (or at least touch) whenever I use a public bathroom [until January 2027]

I must always refer to my body with the correct anatomical terms [always <3]

Orgasms should never be waisted. They should be done during either/or : hypnosis, female pov porn, with some sort of anal stimulation, in public, ordered by my partner, or in a degrading/feminine way (feel free to propose more!). If none of these conditions are met, the orgasm must be ruined. [always <3]

there’s no way to prevent a man from sliding his cock or fingers into me. it doesn’t matter if i’m not wet, spit will do. after all, my pussy is literally a hole designed to easily receive.

i can’t do anything to someone else, but a man can spend however long he wants fucking me. he can cum inside me and permanently alter my body. i’m built for his pleasure.

even my orgasms are for his benefit. if i cum, i clench, and then my hole just feels better for him.

Most of the erotic game is mental. You must not psych yourself out. "I can't really feel this, it's not gonna work, I'm taking too much time, something's wrong with me, they're getting bored--" None of this. Relaxed, open-minded exploration requires mindful curiosity. Try it alone first, explain your anxiety to a partner, whatever it takes, refuse to let yourself be swallowed by distracting doubt. That's the real mind killer.

Then, set aside time to work up physical sensitivity. Get turned on, then refuse to do anything besides play with your nipples. You're looking for "lowest effective dose" here, training your mind and body to be receptive to light touch. This is especially important if you've gone all out on stimulation before, using intense pressure and pain just to squeeze out a reaction.

Don't over-frustrate yourself with long sessions. Start small, make it pleasant, fun, exciting, maybe 5 minutes or less. Getting yourself so frustrated that you cry might be fun, but it's probably not a great call for longevity of this regimen. Don't make this aversive, and maybe try leaving yourself wanting more. You're trying to intrigue yourself with sensation here, pique interest, develop excitement.

Some denial or delay helps, though. Getting yourself really worked up, maybe even close, then switching to nipple play will dance along the edges of frustration and pleasure. High arousal will train you to be receptive to nipple play. As mentioned above, look forward to it! If it's just stressful, upsetting, or anxiety-inducing, it'll be counterproductive in the long-term.

Physiological limitations are real, so don't expect miracles. That'll set yourself up for disappointment. Instead, be open to other enhancing aspects. Stare at it in the mirror when you touch yourself, focusing on movement, color, depth. Listen closely to your own breathing for rate change, gasps, groans. Feel the tension in your core, going up from the pleasure you're used to between your legs, all the way up to the new focus in your nipples. Try out different light sensations, vary by speed, pressure, direction. And have fun in your mental playground, too! Whatever your flavor of kink turned favorably towards this regimen will only increase your dedication :)