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but the person i want to be is also simply just me but better. the me who gets laid when he wants with who he wants, the me that is able to speak and articulate clearly, the me that can achieve anything

like I need to see how it goes

I know I'm not bad but it's been awhile and every day that passes the harder it is for me to justify trying bc I'm just gonna be not my best

and that's the exact reason I need to go out and get fucked

to prove 2 points; I can still do it and there are girls out there who wanna fuck me.

for the first time in a long time I actively wanna get laid

and I'm pretty sure I could easily if I just went out and tried lol

but god damn

I met a girl and we are getting really close bc shes cool asf and hella dope but shes also super gay and this new wave of horniness is making my thoughts muddy. and it's really unfair to her and I'm repressing so much to not pressure her or make things awkward

shes social so maybe she can set me up with some of her friends.

my dudes I wanna try to normalize sex in my life bc it's such a fucking pain getting so uncomfortable whenever anyone brings it up lol

and it sucks but I'm starting to get used to having more realistic hormone levels? like I'm getting to the point where I want to hook up instead of wanting to want to hook up.

2020 is gonna be a crazy year if I keep going the direction I'm going. mentally stable, physically healthy and fit, emotionally ready and I'm always gonna be dtf