Just Tracy

I'm pissed. So damn pissed.

How foolish of me to expect you’d hold me back when I’m drifting away. How foolish of me to want you stop me from walking away. How foolish of me for loving you so deep. How foolish of me for staying awake when you’ve no trouble to sleep. I’m an idiot… I’m a fool. When there you are unaffected and still cool.

I have to stop with the: “I’ve told you that before.” “Remember?” “But you knew that already.” “You forgot again?” Because I realised, you never really paid attention. You never actually listened. You don’t thoroughly care as much as you say. Important matters gone passed ignored, same conversation and topics discussed over again. I’m not asking for much, I’m simply hoping you remember what I hold in great significance. Things that are precious enough to be worth remembering.

I get too excited every time I receive a message from you. I get too giddy when the notification says it’s you. Inexplicable emotions swirl inside me whenever I hear your voice. It’s like everything in me– my blood, my nerves, my organs— they all rejoice. From then on, I already knew. Shit damn it, *inhales* … … … *exhales* I… have freaking fallen in love with you.