❛ — i move the stars for no one.

she hates this. she really does. he shouldn't be having to deal with this. he has a great relationship with his family. she shouldn't be dragging him into her drama. but maybe it's nice that he's willing to- that he wants to. well- he doesn't want the drama at all- he's made it clear he hates how she's been treated throughout her childhood but... he wants to be a part of her life. for real. all of it- even the messy parts... that means a lot to someone whose been told people would only ever like the attractive parts of her. he'd practically dragged her away from the table after the comment her mother had dared make not only to her face but in front of him, in front of her father and step-mom... and the latter two had stayed silent but anthony had refused. she appreciated it. she rarely had the nerve to say what she felt. even now that she got out of that house... it still feels like she's that young girl sometimes when she's back in salt lake. and they wonder why she never wants to visit...

   ❝   i'm sorry.   ❞    she tells him as she settles into his lap in the backseat of the rented car.   ❝   you shouldn't have to defend me at my own mother's house. it's ridiculous.   ❞    tonight was supposed to be about him meeting her parents. it turned into just another night in a lot of ways she feels. her mother saying she'd missed having her home when they arrived felt like a slap in the face now, after everything the last few hours. what do you miss, having your daughter to berate?   ❝   i guess at least you missed the uh- boyfriend talk. the what are your intentions with my daughter thing and trying to intimidate you- all that stuff.   ❞    not that her dad's particularly intimidating... though she supposes perhaps he could be in his own sort of way. there's a reason her mother's the overbearing one though. a few moments pass, and she seems so much smaller than she usually is as she looks at him properly again.   ❝   do you wish we hadn't come?   ❞    it's obvious tonight's taken its toll.

anthony    was    so    protective    of    lily.    she    was    so    good,    such    a    sweet    girl,    and    he    loved    her    more    than    he    had    ever    loved    anyone    in    his    entire    life.    when    her    mother    had    started    in    on    her,    he'd    been    graced    with    a    tunnel    vision    so    strong    that    after    just    one    comment,    he    was    snapping    at    the    woman    and    dragging    his    girlfriend    out    of    the    house.    he    was    almost    certain    that    nobody    had    ever    stood    up    to    lily's    mother,    and    he    wasn't    going    to    stand    for    the    way    she    treated    lily.    his    lily.    his    precious    girl.    he'd    led    her    to    the    car,    but    he    wasn't    in    any    condition    to    be    driving    right    now    when    there    was    so    much    anger    and    adrenaline    rushing    through    his    veins,    so    he'd    asked    her    to    get    in    the    backseat    with    him,    and    now    she    was    resting    on    his    lap    where    she    belonged.    

he'd     thought     he     was     doing     the     right     thing.     he     really     did.     he     could     take     himself     out     of     the     equation     for     her     if     it     meant     she     got     something     better.     he     didn't     want     to     be     selfish     with     her.     he     wanted     her,     absolutely,     but     he     didn't     want     that     to     be     at     the     expense     of     happiness     she     could     be     chasing.     ❝     then     we'll     talk.     if     you're     cool     to     stick     around     tonight,     i'd     love     to     talk     to     you.     ❞     he     says     softly,     his     free     arm     wrapping     around     her     body.     if     she's     going     to     be     this     close     to     him,     let     him     touch     her     so     sweetly,     he     hopes     it's     alright     to     hold     her     closer.     that's     all     he     really     wants     —     to     have     her     near.     ❝     i     still     think     you     deserve     better,     but     maybe     i'll     always     think     that.     you     deserve     the     absolute     best.     ❞     he     wanted     to     be     the     best     for     her,     but     he     didn't     know     how.     he'd     never     done     this     before.     he     was     completely     new     to     relationships     and     he     hated     thinking     he     was     messing     things     up,     especially     if     it     was     going     to     affect     her.     

he     sighs     at     her     question.     he     doesn't     really     know.     maybe     he     is     scared     of     a     relationship.     he     was     sixteen     the     last     time     he'd     dated     someone,     and     she     had     cheated     on     him     with     some     college     frat     guy,     and     it     had     stung.     it     had     been     pretty     rough.     he'd     become     fuckboy     foster     after     that.     ❝     maybe?     i'm     not     scared     to     commit     to     you,     mimi.     i'm     fucking     terrified     that     you'll     realize     you     deserve     so     much     more     than     all     this.     ❞     then     me     is     what     he     wants     to     say,     but     he     thinks     the     point     stands     without     saying     that.     ❝     i     don't     want     you     to     be     that     girl.     i     don't     want     to     text     you     at     two     in     the     morning     wondering     if     you're     up.     i     want     to     know     whether     you're     up     or     not     because     you're     in     my     bed.     ❞     he     tells     her     as     he     finally     unbuttons     one     of     the     buttons     at     his     throat.     ❝     you     think     i'm     good     for     you?     ❞     he     asks,     brows     knitting     together     as     he     speaks.     

“ it might seem stupid but i still look through all of our texts. “

she shakes her head.   ❝    i don't have it in me to say that's stupid- unless it's because you didn't delete my... pictures... when i asked you to. that would be stupid. but- i'm pretty sure you're not that person.   ❞    she thinks she knows him better than that. if she does know him anymore.   ❝    i really did think we had something real you know- i guess it makes sense that you like seeing the proof of the good memories so much. we had a lot of those.   ❞    even if she's still hurt over the breakup, upon returning to the states from london, seeing him again... she's having a hard time being as mad about what happened when he's right in front of her.

❝    of    course    i    deleted    them.    ❞    he    says,    shaking    his    head.    it    had    killed    him    to    do    so,    not    because    they    were    hot    or    because    he    still    wanted    access    to    them,    but    because    it    had    meant    that    they    were    really    over.    letting    her    go...    it    had    seemed    like    a    good    idea    at    the    time.    how    were    they    supposed    to    make    things    work    long    distance    for    any    real    amount    of    time?    he    would    have    relocated    his    entire    life    for    her,    but    then    he'd    gotten    the    fellowship    of    his    dreams,    and    he    couldn't    keep    putting    her    through    the    push-and-pull    of    saying    he    could    be    somewhere    and    then    being    put    on    call    and    not    being    able    to    leave    the    area.    ❝    i    just    think...    you    deserve    better.    amazing    memories    or    not.    ❞    he    says,    exhaling    a    sigh    as    she    looks    at    her.    he    misses    her    more    than    anything,    but    she    deserves    someone    who's    there,    every    day,    who    doesn't    work    twenty-four    hour    shifts    or    have    to    leave    in    the    middle    of    the    night.    she    deserves    someone    who's    around.    he    can't    be    that    right    now.

❝    you'd    definitely    be    making    those    doctors    very    happy.    ❞    he    says    with    a    laugh,    leaning    against    the    counter.    ❝    fortunately,    i    don't    have    to    stick    around    all    day,    my    shift    ends    in    a    few    hours    and    the    interns    will    get    some    training    hours.    i'm    thinking    about    getting    dinner    at    that    new    sushi    place    a    few    blocks    over    afterward,    though.    ❞    he    sighs    as    she    turns    to    work    on    his    order,    eyes    flicking    over    to    the    other    barista    for    a    moment    —    cassandra?    catherine?    he    couldn't    remember    —    before    his    attention    returns    to    tierney.    she    was    very    pretty.    he'd    found    himself    thinking    about    her    more    and    more    after    every    trip    to    the    coffeeshop    that    he    took.    it    was    a    welcome    break    for    him    to    come    see    her    and    get    the    coffee    for    the    office.    ❝    what    time    are    you    gonna    get    off?    it'd    be    cool    if    you    wanted    to    go    with    me    for    a    bite.    ❞    he's    never    really    asked    anyone    out    before    and    as    he    reaches    back    to    rub    the    back    of    his    neck,    a    slight    blush    tints    across    his    features.

tierney rolls her eyes at her coworker’s bad joke as she turns around to see anthony standing at the bakery counter.   ❝    does your boss have you working on a saturday again?   ❞    she asks with a laugh, after all, she too is at work on a saturday.   ❝    the usual right? or are you here on a coffee run?   ❞    she’s been working here long enough now to recognize the regular customers, and with the building he works in only a block from here, she sees him and a few of his colleagues fairly often to get breakfast, lunch, or just coffee. they make it a lot better here than at the medical offices scattered around the area from all she’s heard. plus she likes to think she makes a great cappuccino.

❝    oh,    tier-drop,    you    know    they    can't    survive    there    without    me.    ❞    he    says    with    a    laugh,    looking    at    the    pretty    barista    behind    the    counter.    he    was    the    one    who    typically    had    to    do    the    coffee    run    for    the    higher-ups,    but    he    didn't    mind.    he'd    made    friends    with    the    staff    at    the    coffee    shop    and    he    liked    the    break.    he    didn't    get    why    the    interns    were    so    against    going    to    pick    up    coffee.    he    enjoyed    getting    a    little    sun    and    fresh    air,    getting    to    eat    his    danish    as    he    walked    back    to    the    office,    and    getting    paid    for    it    all,    too.    ❝    doctor    bennett    had    an    emergency    this    morning,    some    beloved    football    player    with    a    bad    tear.    it's    gonna    be    a    long    day.    fingers    are    crossed    this    isn't    a    career-ender.    ❞

personally ,   i’m  tired  of  the  secondhand  embarrassment.   so  here’s  a  random  assortment  of  nsfw  actions  and  dialogue  prompts  that  don’t  feel  too  over  the  top.   (  don’t  forget  to  add  [ reverse ]  if  you’d  like  to  see  the  receiver  perform  the  action.  )

actions.

[ PULL ]:  sender  pulls  receivers  hair.

[ HICKEY ]:  sender  gives  receiver  a  hickey.

[ TRAIL ]:  sender  leaves  a  trail  of  kisses  down  receivers  stomach.

[ HIPS ]:  sender  pulls  receiver  in  closer  by  the  hips.

[ KNEES ]:  sender  lowers  themselves  to  their  knees.

[ STRIPTEASE ]:  sender  teasingly  strips  their  clothes.

[ STRIP ]:  sender  undresses  receiver.

[ GRIND ]:  sender  grinds  on  receivers  thigh.

[ ORAL ]:  sender  goes  down  on  receiver.

[ PASSENGER ]:  sender  touches  receiver  while  sender  is  driving.

[ DRIVER ]:  sender  goes  down  on  /  touches  receiver  while  receiver  is  driving.

[ OVERSTIMULATED ]:  sender  repeatedly  making  receiver  orgasm.

[ PUBLIC ]:  sender  and  receiver  have  sex  somewhere  public.

[ CAR ]:  sender  and  receiver  have  sex  in  a  car.

[ CONTROL ]:  sender  is  riding  receiver  and  receiver  takes  control  by  guiding  their  hips.

[ SHY ]:  sender  covers  their  face  and  receiver  moves  their  hands  away.

[ EYES ]:  sender  makes  receiver  look  them  in  the  eyes.

[ BEG ]:  sender  begs  receiver  to  touch  /  fuck  them.

[ MORNING ]:  sender  wakes  receiver  up  with  sex.

[ STRADDLE ]:  sender  sits  in  receivers  lap  to  tease  them.

[ CAMERA ]:  sender  records  receiver.

[ RECORD ]:  sender  is  recorded  by  receiver.

[ MOUTH ]:  sender  puts  their  fingers  into  receivers  mouth.

[ LOVE ]:  sender  tells  receiver  they  love  them  during.

[ PUSH ]:  sender  pushes  receiver  onto  bed.

dialogue.

“ you  look  so  pretty  like  this.  “

“ i  want  to  spend  all  night  learning  every  sound  you  make. “

“ let  me  take  care  of  you. “

“ i’m  not  wearing  any  underwear  right  now. “

“ you’re  really  good  at  that. “

“ god,  you’re  so  wet  /  hard  …. “

“ i  think  about  you  when  i  touch  myself. “

“ tell  me  what  you  want. “

“ please  touch  /  fuck  me. “

“ i  love  teasing  you. “

“ touch  yourself  for  me. “

“ i  get  so  wet  /  hard  around  you. “

“ get  on  your  knees. “

“ you’re  such  a  tease. “

“ tell  me  you’re  mine. “

“ i’m  yours. “

“ i  want  you  to  cum  for  me. “

“ i  want  you  to  cum  in  me. “

“ i’ll  be  good,  i  promise. “

“ you’re  doing  so  good  for  me. “

“ you  feel  so  good. “

“ you  sound  so  pretty  when  you  moan. “

“ i  could  be  your  toy. “

“ fuck  me  like  you  love  me. “

“ i’m  gonna  cum- “

“ i  just  want  to  feel  something. “

you never told me that. i can't believe you never told me.

what difference does it make?

no, no, no, don't leave me! please!

i failed you. is that what you want me to say?

was it all a lie? all this time?

so... when do you leave? what time? so i can be ready.

why did it take you so long to tell me? how long have you been holding this in?

i was wrong.

is this it? is this all there is?

at least give me one last dance.

all the exits are blocked. we're trapped.

there's too much blood.

you're the worst person i've ever met.

you're just as broken as i am.

i really thought we could work things out.

so stupid of me to think you actually cared.

you're just going to carry on and pretend like everything's fine when it's not fine.

go on without me. i can handle this.

don't tell me i'm too late.

i told you to leave me alone.

there's no use in trying anymore. it's over.

i should have known. i should have known all along.

i need you to be honest with me. tell me the truth. i deserve the truth.

you failed me.

i wish i never met you.

it's over. go home.

i feel something broken inside me. you can't fix it. no one can.

just take some deep breaths. in and out. you're gonna be fine.

you used to be better than this.

there's no way out.

what the hell was that for?

if you stay here, you'll die. do you understand?

how dare you speak to me like that!

am i too late?

you have to believe me. i didn't mean for this to happen.

i used to think you were perfect. i guess i was wrong.

so this is how it ends? just like that?

we're running out of time.

when were you going to tell me the truth?

how long has it been since we spoke? feels like years.

when did this start? how long has this been going on?

you never really loved me. it was all fake.

who was that? why were they here? why did you let them in?

i came as fast as i could.

what the hell did you think would happen?

can i even trust you?

i don't know who i am anymore.

i can't lose you again.

you are my biggest regret.

what good will it do?

just keep pressure on the wound, okay?

how could you do this to me?

i said get out! get out of here!

i'm never speaking to you again.

i tried to stop it!

you're so fucking stupid.

it's never been okay.

good riddance.

get out of here! i'll handle this!

i can't believe you. i can't believe you did this to me.

you were a good person once. i looked up to you.

i never should have listened to you. i'm such a fool.

don't lie to me! i know when you're lying!

why the hell did you do that?

i've never been wanted. not really. not by anyone.

i never loved you.

i've been dealing with this my whole life.

it was all a lie.

you forgot my birthday.

i'm a monster.

you actually believed that shit?

you think i would just stick around and let you treat me like that?

are you actually leaving?

can i kiss you one last time?

i can't believe i gave up my life for you. i gave up everything for you.

i can't lose you, too!

for what it's worth, there's no one i would rather fight alongside.

hang on for me, all right? don't leave me. please don't go.

i deserve better than this. i deserve better than you.

good! get out of here! i didn't want you here anyway!

i made it up as i went along.

things are going to get worse before they get better.

i don't think we're getting out of this alive.

we're not gonna make it.

get the fuck out of my face.

[ 📲 sms: ]  i hate everyone. but not you. [ 📲 sms: ]  want to make a beautiful memory together? [ 📲 sms: ]  i'd rather do nothing with you than something with anyone else. [ 📲 sms: ]  netflix? chill? both? [ 📲 sms: ]  can't stop thinking about you. [ 📲 sms: ]  you're my favorite veggie. a cute-cumber! [ 📲 sms: ]  i adore you. that's all. [ 📲 sms: ]  you make me a better person and i'd like to keep improving. [ 📲 sms: ]  it's cold today. can you warm me up? [ 📲 sms: ]  i'm into curves, and my favorite is your smile. [ 📲 sms: ]  my day is more fun when you're in it. [ 📲 sms: ]  you were in my dreams last night. wanna hear? [ 📲 sms: ]  you were the first thing i thought of when i woke up. [ 📲 sms: ]  i already miss you and can't wait to see you again. [ 📲 sms: ]  what would you do if i were with you right now? [ 📲 sms: ]  hey stranger. stop being a stranger. [ 📲 sms: ]  this is me asking you out. want to get coffee tomorrow? [ 📲 sms: ]  nobody understands me like you do. [ 📲 sms: ]  i wish you were here with me. [ 📲 sms: ]  you never text first. i can’t tell if you hate me or if you’re playing hard to get. [ 📲 sms: ]  which emoji makes you think of me? [ 📲 sms: ]  want to have this conversation in person? [ 📲 sms: ]  i don’t have anything interesting to tell you, but i really wanted to talk to you. [ 📲 sms: ]  everything makes me think of you. [ 📲 sms: ]  i can't sleep. i blame you. [ 📲 sms: ]  surprise! i got you flowers: 💐 [ 📲 sms: ]  i can't help but smile every time your name pops up on my screen. [ 📲 sms: ]  you look so good right now. i can’t actually see you, but i assume you look good because you always do. [ 📲 sms: ]  even over text you're so charming. [ 📲 sms: ]  i'm smiling just thinking about getting to see you later. [ 📲 sms: ]  my day would've been a lot better if i'd gotten to spend it with you. [ 📲 sms: ]  i'm really glad to have you in my life. [ 📲 sms: ]  i could talk to you all night. [ 📲 sms: ]  just thinking about falling in love with you. i'd do it all over again and again. [ 📲 sms: ]  you mean the world to me. don’t ever forget that. [ 📲 sms: ]  i'm so incredibly lucky to know you. [ 📲 sms: ]  you get more beautiful every time i see you. [ 📲 sms: ]  you are my heart. [ 📲 sms: ]  you’re single. i'm single. i feel like this is a problem we can solve together. [ 📲 sms: ]  thinking a lot of things about you i can’t say … but i could text.