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“One more, it’s just a little bigger okay?”

“Can’t…c-can’t I can’t…” little hiccup sobs

"Ok we'll leave that one in awhile and try again later"

Starting out as “you’re way too big for me” and ending up as “why the fuck did you do that, that was awful. You’re still way too big, fucking hell. I don’t wanna do that again.”

so i have a low cervix (i can feel it with my finger most times) and in case any other painplay fans are interested, i'm gonna describe what this feels like because i never see people talk about it and that saddens me.

the cervix has so many nerve endings and can bring one to orgasm in a way that other stimulation can't give. which is why it's particularly fucked up that when one gets an iud they will often tell them they don't need anesthesia, but i digress. this sensitivity combined with the anatomy around it means that cervical stimulation is incredibly intense with each thrust. there's pain there - dull, shooting, tender- but the pleasure comes in bursting waves moreso than any other in my opinion.

there's not just the contact itself, but there's also the pressure while your body yields to the penetration. in a process called tenting, the cervix moves up and back to create space. the vaginal canal elongates so that you may be penetrated deeper. each thrust against the cervix is debilitating: blinding, aching, nauseating. i'd personally describe it as cramping along your lower abdomen and up your back. this feeling is that of your organs squishing around the penetration, particularly the uterus, as it's being forced out of the way to accommodate.

i hate seeing unrealistic depictions of cervical stimulation. when porn is animated and the cervix is shown to be penetrated and then someone gets their womb fucked. barring the fact it's not possible, and while admittedly hot in concept, the reality of deep penetration like this is so much more interesting. the womb isn't being invaded, rather it's being crushed upwards and away. your cervix being bullied until the tissue becomes soft with your arousal and the stimulation so that whatever is penetrating you can be pressed impossibly deeper until it's fully inside.

my favourite part about using a dildo is having to coax my cervix into doing all this by necessity of my anatomy. there's the stretch of my vaginal cavity first which is pleasant and nice with g spot stimulation. the best part though? ramming the dildo deep and feeling the ache begin to form. the cervix is hard at the beginning of this process and unyielding until you hit it enough times and it begins to retreat. oftentimes i'm so lost in the pleasure-pain that i can't think of anything but the way it feels like i'm splitting in two. slow thrusts or warming encourage a more gradual cramp to build, which is better for low energy sessions that still leave you writhing and groaning. more violent thrusts give your cervix no time to retract or soften completely and it just makes it feel like you're being gut punched over and over, seeing stars and shrieking. both of these are absolutely delightful.

i'm yet to do deep penetration with another person, but the opportunities for sadomasochism, dominance, cnc are endless. push someone's physical limits today and literally rearrange their insides for yourself, as a treat.

Here is an ongoing list of ethical (feminist, BIPoC, queer) porn sites, pls add in the comments what you love and know:

XConfessions: https://xconfessions.com/

Four Chambers: https://www.afourchamberedheart.com/

LustCinema: https://lustcinema.com/

Crashpad Series: https://crashpadseries.com/

Oil Productions: https://oilproductions.ch/

ForPlay Films: https://forplayfilms.com/

Aorta Films: http://www.aortafilms.com/home

Pink Label: https://pinklabel.tv/

Queer Porn: https://queerporn.tv/wp/

Indie Porn Revolution: http://indiepornrevolution.com/indie-porn/

Bright Desire: https://brightdesire.com/tour/

Make Love Not Porn: https://makelovenotporn.tv/

Oactually: https://www.oactually.com/

Sssh: https://sssh.com/

If you like to share your toys, I wanna hear you remind your friends how special i am to you while they wait to use me and hear you tell me how good i am being a shared toy. You can talk to your friends like im a toy, talking about how well I take cock while they fuck me, laughing at my whines and moans while you coo about how cute my cunt looks dripping with cum.

I wanna see his dazed out expression while we move between stores. I want to murmur in his ear, "Yeah, puppy? That feel good?" just to hear him stifle a whimper. Maybe stopping by the food court to sit down for a little snack as he subtly moves his hips up and down on the chair. Gently asking him his color every once in a while, getting a small, "G-Green..." in response, smiling and whispering in his ear what a good boy he is.