It Be What It Be

Thank you to everyone who got me to 5000 likes!

I figured it out, I guess.

I'm like that one friend you talk to once a year, but we don't actually talk.

It took me 23 years to finally get away from my Nmom. And, not even willfully. She decided she was leaving, so I let her and when she came back she chased me down in a car that I gave her because I asked for a break from her. (Her leaving was done very poorly and had a huge impact on me because I was living with her at the time.) At that time my Dad wasn't putting any effort into our relationship and I only heard from him when I called him on holidays and his birthday, or when he needed something. Recently I told him not to contact me at all if he's only going to do it when he needs something. No response.

So here I am, now at 25, all by myself. And holy fuck, is it difficult.

Doing it all on your own without parental support (I've really lacked it all my life, but now it's no contact) is so fucking hard, it hurts.