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• Make a fist with your thumb outside, not tucked inside. If it’s tucked inside your fist, when you punch someone, you might break your thumb. The thumb goes across your fingers, not on the side.

• Don’t be like in the movies—don’t aim for the face. Face punches don’t usually stop people, and you can miss when they duck their head or break your hand on their jaw. If you want to get away quickly, or end a fight, aim for the chest, or the ribs. If you really want to do some damage, e.g., you’re being attacked, aim for the throat, which will make it hard for your attacker to breathe for a hot minute.

keep your wrist straight.

if your attacker is male, go for his junk - especially if he’s wearing loose pants. There’s no sportsmanship when it comes to assault so fuck them balls UP

punching pretty much ANYWHERE in the face is going to actually hurt you a LOT (just think - you’re punching your bones into their bones and ow). If you’re going for the face, my suggestion is to strick upwards with your palm.

see that meaty portion highlighted in red? There’s a lot of muscle and fat right there which makes it excellent for striking. Hold your hand as shown and aim for the nose or chin (though I’ve been told in extreme circumstances, doing this to the nose can be fatal but I’ve never really heard if this is true or not) and just aim upwards

other delicate areas: 

the shin (hurts like a bitch if you kick it right - also, you can hit this spot if you’re being held in a choke-hold and if your attacker has to move in order to stop you from kicking him, he’ll have to angle his body so as to expose his stomach and crotch to the wild spastic jabbings of your elbows)

the solar plexus (either jab while holding your hand in a sort of spear position or use your elbows - unless you’re super strong, your punch probably won’t wind your attacker. Your elbow or a spear hand will, however)

Originally in (most) martial arts, you hit the solar plexus because it supposedly contained an important chakra. Now we know that it actually also contains like a bunch of necessary organs that are exposed just below your ribs and is also (roughly) where your diaphragm lives so getting punched there is not pleasant.

the clavicle (from experience, getting hit in your clavicle HURTS LIKE A MOTHERFUCKER. If you strike downwards with your knuckles, the person might just cry. Like I did.)

the ear (this is probably the best place to punch besides the throat. It’s all cartilage so it probably won’t hurt you all that much and most people will be like “DUDE YOU PUNCHED ME IN THE EAR WHAT THE HELL”)

the kidneys (this is harder to hit without training but if you somehow get your attacker’s back to face you, try to hit’em in the kidneys. Again, from experience, this FUCKING HURTS. You can’t really hit the kidneys from the front with any effect but from the back it is super painful)

-Draw blood if you can, especially if you can draw it from the face or the eyes. Blood in the eyes is not just a good way to impair your attacker’s vision, it’s also a really good way to freak them out and let them know that they might be getting more than they bargained for by picking a fight with you.

-Elbows and knees are really powerful weapons. Elbows are very sharp and very strong and if you are in close-range they are often more effective than trying to throw a punch. 

“I’m sure it’s just your anxiety I don’t see you as CRAZY”

Everyone’s out to get me

Is there actually a face on that or?

*Voices screeching and sighing* okay did I ask?

Not sleeping ever

Can anyone else hear that?

He’s staring at me they’re all staring

Don’t answer the phone, don’t eat that, don’t look at him, don’t do that.

Random shadows or people in the mirrors

The bugs

The ringing and buzzing of flies

Wondering if you’re actually real

Wondering if youre really doing what you’re doing

Not being able to explain to people or family members because they don’t care or don’t want to deal with you

Covering your ears doesn’t help

Rocking back and forth is so innocent and helpful

Thinking you’re fine and 3 seconds later thinking you need to be locked up

The voices arguing.

Shuddering, shoving, and screaming to keep from them touching you or touching it.

Nothing seems real

How do I know my family isn’t fake

Are my family robots

How do I know that my pets aren’t imaginary

Being genuinely suprised when there is a real bug on you

Your therapist telling you to change your relationship with the voices to something pleasant first off hOW THE FUCK

Upping your meds anytime it gets bad

Not wanting to take your meds Everytime it gets bad

No one truly understanding what’s going on with you

Religious parents/grandparents thinking that the devil is your voices and he’s got a hold of you (telling me this makes it worse thanks)

The constant stress of just being alive

Not being able to sleep or being woken up by your schizophrenia

-being tired, so tired all the time and your muscles always ache

-They are always watching but you can never find their cameras and microphones

-your pets know what you are saying/thinking and they can talk but they choose not to say anything and just spy on you

-having speech problems at random times and people think youre being rude or trying to be funny

-never having a routine, never eating regular meals, never brushing your teeth or showering or doing other basic things

-feeling nothing and then feeling it all at once at bad times

-hearing constant ringing or humming or buzzing

-crying for no reason or never crying when you know you should

-looking in the mirror and seeing someone thats not you

Don’t:

Tell us it’s real.

Add more information or details to our delusions.

Try to take control of or change our delusions.

Give us examples of what it could be besides a delusion or a hallucination as in “what if these shadow people you see are ACTUALLY ghosts.”

Tell us that we’re stupid or crazy or dumb or sick for believing what we see and think is real.

Tell us not to talk about it.

Confront us with the fact that it isn’t real and that we’re sick unless you’ve talked to us first about whether that helps and gotten our permission. You’re not our therapist and we might not need or want you to confront our illness, we might just want you to be supportive and listen.

Dismiss or invalidate our thoughts and experiences. They’re very real to us.

Do:

Ask us what we need from you - do your friend need and want you to confront them with the fact that they’re sick and it isn’t real or would you doing that make everything worse?

Listen and be empathetic. Example: “wow, that must be scary, I totally get that you’re upset - can I do anything to make you feel better?”

Tell us that what we see and hear can’t hurt us and that we’re safe even though we’re experiencing these upsetting things.

Try to distract us - ask if we want to do something active with you like playing a board game or going for a run or going to the mall to get our minds off things and connect us to reality.

Understand that what we think and experience is real to us.

Help us feel safe and let us be weird in the attempt to feel safe. Let us pour salt on the floor if it keeps the demons away, give us water from and unopened bottle if there’s something wrong with the water in the taps, taste our food to check if it’s poisonous and help us cover the cameras so they can’t watch us.

- nourish yourself with water, fruits and other nutritious food

- look up when walking, not down at the ground

- try to exercise or take a walk outside if it’s sunny

- be organized: have a planner so you feel more relaxed

- be extra kind to everyone, they might remember it forever, or on days where they’re wondering what there is to live for

- take care or help something, get a potted plant if you’re lonely

- smile at people more, if you send out good vibes you will get them back

- ignore negativity; remember the brightest parts of each day and write them down

- dont punish yourself by hurting your body or being apathetic towards it; this includes eating or sleeping not enough/too much, not showering or taking care of hygiene

- get out of bed in the morning, even if you don’t feel like it, open the curtains and stretch

- use perfume or sweet smelling creams or shower gels, spoil yourself with bath bombs

- look at the mirror and notice your cute features; why live a life hating your looks

- aim to be healthy, that’s the most important thing

- have a relaxing and nice morning and evening routine for your skin and mind

i feel like this needs to be addressed. We are very used to reading smut where the characters aren’t safe/ don’t wear protection. we’ve all grown up reading and writing that way (guilty as charged) and in a world on paper that’s totally okay!! but we don’t realize how desensitized we are to the idea of safe sex, and how important it is. so in a world that ISN’T on paper, remember to be safe and wear protection!!! whether it’s to prevent pregnancy, or to make sure you don’t catch anything life threatening like AIDS or other STD’s.

People always ask about warning signs Eric and Dylan might have shown in the weeks before Columbine. By then, however, it was too late. The warning signs had come the year before. Now they had learned to keep their secret to themselves.

I remember Eric telling me once in class that he couldn’t wait until he turned eighteen so he could buy a gun. The conversation was pretty short, and he didn’t bring it up again. But when someone says something like that, you have no reason to think he might already own guns.

But Eric and Dylan did.