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Let's talk about this messed up sport of bodybuilding for a hot minute. I was going through my photos and saw the photo on the right - and the caption under it was how I was so overweight and how I was using this as a "before photo" (good thing I never started cutting since I was encouraged to keep the gains comin) but SERIOUSLY?! I cannot wait to get back to that. And then later on, back to the left. But hey - I'll take the right back any day now. 🙈🙈 it just goes to show that you can end up with such a messed up body image. 🙅 yes, we all strive for the stomach I had on the left back in spring 2013, but the photo on the right is more realistic if you're not competing. I am healthier in the right hand side than I was on the left. 👌 I am SO grateful that I took an off season to figure things out or else I would still think it's completely normal to be under 10% body fat and that the feeling of hunger is NOT the taste of success. It's the taste of, well, nothing. 😷 yes, dieting will take work. But once you hit that super low body fat, remember not to hate the softer version either. Right now, I'm a little beyond just "soft" but that'll change FAST, but there is a happy medium and I feel the tummy on the right from 20 weeks ago is more manageable than the abs are. Aim for the abs only if for an event - but after that event - remember that there is absolutely nothing wrong with the person on the right. ❤️❤️❤️

Guess which foods are mine and guess what Rob is eating. 🙆 Rob only decides he wants to eat shit food RIGHT when I start dieting. You're funny, @bobbylight1333. 🙅😒 don't worry - I'm saving a few of each of the new Oreos for my cheat meal this weekend. 😜

People ask what my favorite hot sauce is when dieting and I'll admit - I keep things pretty dang simple. Franks Red Hot Buffalo Wings is SO good and 0 calories. BAM BAM. winner! 👌 I can't believe I'm starting my diet on over 2,000 calories. 👏 that's what a good off season does. 🙆 raise that metabolic capacity and then you get to EAT. Sure I got kind of fluffy but I was eating TONS of food. And now 2,000 calories feels like 1,000. 🙈 hire a good coach who understands this logic and doesn't starve you from the very beginning. 🙅😁

Tomorrow being TUESDAY. ATL is expecting a "2 inch snow storm" AGAIN. So naturally were all snowed in and the whole city will shut down all over again. Fun. But I'll be very productive and have all the programs done. Send email to [email protected] for info on if this diet and workout program is something that'd work for you! 👌👏💪

Shoutout to @bottle_band for being super awesome and sending me this! It def came in handy while I was trucking along on the stairs. 😝😝 most bottles don't have handles and if you're doing a lot of cardio, that can be a pain having to grip your bottle for dear life mid jog. 🙆 but this affordable and cute band can make that problem disappear. 👌😍 I love the quotes each different color has. This one was very special to me today. I am NOT used to doing cardio. I was bad and really didn't do a lot for a good 7 months. So 40 min of miserable stair stepping kept making me want to quit. But I stared at this "sore > sorry" band and remembered why I started. ❤️ get yours today! @bottle_band @bottle_band @bottle_band @bottle_band

Can't believe I forgot to post this last night! This was my last meal. 😍😍 Mac and cheese, bistro steak, calamari and empanadas. NOM. #TwoUrbanLicks was amazing. 👌👌

This is where I'm starting. 😒😳🙊 I definitely enjoyed my 7 months of off season a litttttle too much. But what I have created underneath this protective layer of fat, is a crap load of muscle. @jamiepinder14 is one of the biggest inspirations to me in this whole journey. She did bikini - then hit up physique a year later. Much like what I'm planning to do. I can only hope to have the same success she has had. I trained so hard this off season - kept remembering what my goal was and now, I can diet and slowly take this wrapping paper off to see this gift I've created for myself. Thank you to my amazing fiancé, @bobbylight1333 for loving me in every shape - thin, weak, soft, hard, fluffy and shredded. You are the reason I was able to still enjoy life and food and not feel like I was just a fat slob. Going from shredded at 105 to 150 and soft in 7 months time was hard. I felt like a failure in a way due to having dieted so hard before - to only gain all the weight back and then some. But I'm far from a failure. I just created a new beginning. 💪 stay tuned. 💪

Be your own motivation. Look at yourself and find something that you can be proud of. ❤️ #motivationalmonday

Drinkin that #SuperHD out of my @flexitpink bottle. Off to the store to load up on egg whites. 😋 diet gonn be on point.

@hannapeaches and I celebrating @katclower's birfffday! Last day of eating whatever I want - time to get shredded first thing tomorrow. 😬😈 (at Two Urban Licks)

BIG NEWS! 👏🙆 I just paid my dues to @Dom_iacovone and I am officially in PREP on Monday - 20 weeks out from the NPC Georgia in July. 😝 I am SO ready to get back to being a lean machine. 👌 this was night before show in April of 2013 when I first competed in bikini. Can't wait to compare these to how I look in July. 💪 LETS GET SHREDDED!!!!!!! #TeamElite! ☺️❤️😁😝 @jen_galloway1 @rakeemg @bobbylight1333 @aleyshadepalmo @hannapeaches @m_roura @katclower

@bobbylight1333 and I hanging out in Stone Mountain at our Open House. 🏡 come see it for yourself! 👌💗☺️ [email protected] ❤️

#flashbackfriday 😝😝 When I look back at this, I can't do anything but smile at how much I've grown. 💗 back in these days, all I wanted were abs. I would do whatever I could to make sure I kept them vascular and would stare at them about 30 times a day. I had never seen myself this lean before and it was so cool to me. 😁 but near the end, it became a disorder in a way. I was doing extra cardio, eating less, worrying all the time and all I could do was think about food that I couldn't have. 😳 it was a sickness. I was so in it to win it but bikini just didn't suit me. I wasn't "the sexy" they were looking for. I had to do hours of running to keep from gaining muscle do to me training too hard. I kept on getting super disappointed at the way shows were going for me. 🙅😒 I decided "ok. I think women's physique is where I'm headed." But with that, came some sacrifices. Any one who tells you that you can gain 15-20lbs of muscle in one year on a "lean bulk" is talking up their ass. 🙊 more cals you eat, the stronger you are. Fat will be gained but muscle will be made. 💪 when it's time to cut, it may be harder than before but the muscle that you built will be worth the struggle. I'm hoping to weigh 120 on stage and I was almost 100lbs when I competed from Feb-June 2013. That's a 15-20lb muscle gain! 😳😳😳 I couldn't have done it by eating minimal amounts and doing tons of cardio. I do believe it can stay a little less sloppy and ill get better over time but girls....the first few bulks will be learning lessons and you WILL gain a great amount of muscle by using those calories for good use. 😉☺️ always keep grinding and do what suits your training style and body. I'm SO happy I switched divisions. I'll have abs again and I'll be rewarded for training hard - not punished with more running. 😜🙆

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@hannapeaches killed me tonight. 😳😳😳 It's always another level of motivation training with this IFBB pro beast. 💪💪 we started with leg extensions, then close stance squats Nd wide stance squats for 3 sets each stance and 20 reps. At 95-135lbs. Yeah. 👊🙆 then we did leg press, DB stiff deads and then one leg ext SS lying ham curls. DEAD. 🙅😣 but now I'm refueling with my #CookiesAndCream @questnutrition bar. 😁😍 watch out for HannaBeast because she's gonna make some noise when she does her first Pro show! 😘😘😘

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Lunch time 💗💗💗 love this grill!