and for whom the stars shatter?

i know i said before my previous post would be my last but i just wanted to make this post incase a friend i had from my past would still want to reach out to me. this message is for you jen, if you happen to check upon my tumblr.

i hope you’re doing well and that you are taking breaks studying in uni. i think you’re going to graduate soon, since i am too but just two-three semesters behind you. how are you doing? i know it’s been tough the past two years because of covid. i hope you, your family, and your friends, are all okay and safe.

it’s been 4 years since we’ve talked. i know it’s kinda weird and creepy to say, but that’s how much you meant to me as a friend. you were my bestest girlfriend after an, and i was so happy to talk to you everyday afterschool in junior yr of hs while it was your senior year. i remember playing fantage, bitstrips, pico, and pigg together. mostly pigg during those few months in hs, but it was still so fun to me. i wish we could still play together on there but it closed down later in dec 2019.

the day you last left me, i wondered if you hated me. not that you actually hated me, you wouldn’t talk to me at all and left me earlier if you did. but i wondered if you hated keeping in touch with me because every time i tried to search and reach out to you, you leave after and i wonder if it’s because you hate me, or you really are that secretive. or maybe just being online friends isn’t it for you.

i hope you know that i don’t mean any harm to you, i just wanna stay in contact with you. we don’t have to talk to each other everyday, and just once in a while, every few weeks or months or so if you’re uncomfortable. but if this isn’t the case, why do you leave everytime?

i think deleting your discord last time was a bit too much. i remember you promised you will come back a year after but i hope i’m not being immature by dwelling on the past too much by saying that i miss talking to you. we’ve met in 2010 because of jay/jan from fantage, and ever since then we’ve been on and off in 2012 and 2016 and 2018, will you come back to reach me again? it seems like this is the longest its been.

if you want to contact me, you know you can always DM me here or on discord: @muiju

i’ll keep waiting for whenever you reach back. i have so many things i want to tell you, talk about with you, and bond with all over again. i hope it’s the same for you too.

i’ll always be here for you whenever i can, so i hope you reach me again one day and we can be true friends (again).