Relapse Blog

Woke up lighter than I went to sleep

My therapist wants to admit me to an outpatient program

I stayed under 500 cal today and burned 200 so I’m feeling good but also ashamed that I’m getting so sucked into this again. Tomorrow we’re going to the mall and I have to figure out an excuse for why I can’t eat the Chinese food which is like my favorite thing ever. I’m sad to be missing out tbh

I thought I would lose weight but I just ended up losing everyone’s trust instead lol

I got ballerina tea against my better judgement so I guess you could say I’m back on my bullshit (emphasis on the shit)

I have to go to a potluck later and I have so much anxiety about how I’m going to make sure I count all the calories correctly. I’m just going to try to enjoy myself and have a few bites of the food I’m bringing myself

My MIL is making lamb chops tonight and there are so many calories, I’m freaking out. I just want to make my own low calorie dinner and be in control of what I eat

I’ve done 10,000 steps for three days in a row now. Matt said it’s good that I’m trying to be more active and idk how to tell him it’s compulsive