Welcome to the Trauma Train

Sometimes... it’s just like... what’s even the point anymore? Why struggle?? Why fight?? We all die anyway..

I deserve to be taken seriously I deserve to be loved correctly. I deserve not to be manipulated, gaslighted, and made to feel small just because someone can do it. I learned that when I was 22. And I will never forget it. That’s why even my flesh and blood could get cut off.

People will sit and act like their toxic behavior is okay???? Like no. It’s not okay. It’s not cute. It’s not just your fucking personality. It’s something entirely changeable and if you’re happy the way you are with all of that toxicity you’re gonna end up alone. Or you’re gonna end up changing. Changing not for anyone else but because you’re tired of being called out for the same shit. Then finally you’ll recognize YOU are the fucking problem. I fucking hate people.

On a different note I fucking hate people

Okay so... not single but definitely got anxiety 😭

Funnily enough it’s legit our anniversary today well one of them if you do it monthly plus I’m 23 months on T meaning almost two years and idgaf because the woman I love can’t take any criticism that she dishes out.

I hate feeling like I can’t be honest with people I love because then I get quiet and that’s a whole other problem for people. You either want me to speak or you don’t.

I’m tired of this shit.

Gonna make/reconnect with a friend and never tell my supposed “S/O” we talk frequently while telling her about every other conversation I have with other people... then I’ll gaslight her saying it’s not a big deal even though this is my EXACT M.O. from every time I’ve cheated 🤗 oh wait— I’d never do that.

I’m tired of being treated like I’m crazy just because I have standards.