아직 몰라

i always wanted to love my mom, knew that it s not possible tho... but nobody can say i didnt try enough. dont understand y she ignores my effort to be a daughter just like she wants. did everything, dont want to compare myself with people around us but, i know i am so much better and smarter than most of them. i did best i can till now and she still thinks i aint shit. is it this bad to be depressed? y cant she just let me rest for a while... i heared that she thinks i am useless, i heared this from her mouth... cant believe she thinks like this. finally i realized that she dont deserve a shit. i dont want her love or respect anymore. i think, i m leaving home very soon, with a dog, without a job... we ll see if i will survive. yup.