I have a dream, a song to sing

Internally, and externally, screaming in my car after seeing my ex-best friend at another callback when I wasn’t expecting him…

And now it’s 5am and I’m still awake with no desire to try to sleep yet

I feel like It Takes Two is supposed to help your relationship so why do I feel even worse going to bed now? We were kings doing better then I expressed not wanting to stop to have sex while I was making a drink in the kitchen like 3/4 through what we thought was the whole game and after that he was shut down and combative. Like, I get that I was sensitive and getting annoyed but his demeanor completely changed after the kitchen.

All of my fb ads are for ozempic but my BMI’s not high enough to qualify for ozempic and that’s just not fair lol 😩

Got into a fight with my boyfriend, again, because he stopped listening to me about when to cash out at the slot machines. So he came home drunk and angry, multiple times, and after throwing shit around and cleaning up, he passed out on the couch. And I’m not surprised at all that he needed to sleep because he was drunk almost immediately after his first drink at lunch, but like wtf why are the options come home screaming or pass out?! Why couldn’t he calm down enough to have a real conversation, because he’s definitely not going to remember this now, even if his friend texts him when she gets off work.

Getting to say straight to the guy that “didn’t want to pursue anything with me anymore” a year ago but still hookup every couple months, that I got my puppy because my boyfriend brought her home as a surprise for me, was kind of a highlight of my evening… not sure how he didn’t get that the first time he met the puppy when my guy showed up at the bar and took her from me to walk around

I honestly don’t care if you get mad right now. I’ve been sad and feeling lonely for a bit now, not just away from home. I got upset because we did joke about having sex then you didn’t seem to make an effort to follow up on it before I had to leave. Then you made it seem like I was l only getting upset because we didn’t have sex. Like no there’s more going on but that was a big deal. You saying we’ll fix it Tuesday as if that’s all it is?? Tell me you’re done but we’ll fix it Tuesday?!?

My ex trying to hit me up on insta like I’m not just gonna permanently delete the whole thread now cause wtf you doing

Seeing a high school friend get engaged a few weeks ago then post today about how their first date was a year ago… so they were dating for less than a year before he proposed. Like it’s stupid and I shouldn’t care and I’m glad I didn’t marry my ex.. but still the fact that I dated someone for 5 yrs who was probably never gonna propose and everyone else gets engaged after 1-2 years. And at the same time, my family’s was all worried about me moving in with my bf after a month even though I was spending every day and night with him at his place already.

Shit’s not looking good and I’m dog sitting this weekend and I hate that I can’t be home with him right now

Two months of dating. His parents’ anniversary. His mom’s last day of her week of chemo. And officially living together for almost three weeks. And it’s been a harder couple weeks with his mom’s stuff but I’m very happy to literally physically be here for him.

Soooooo his mom has leukemia

Don’t date an Italian chef if you want to not gain weight because it’s been a month and a half and while we don’t have a scale for me to check how bad it’s gotten, my pants don’t fit and I have a gut again so that’s not cool. And definitely don’t move in with him because then you’ll be eating delicious brunches and snacks all the time with no excuse not to.

It has literally only been a month of dating but it feels like we’ve known each other so much longer. Probably because I’m practically living in his apartment and have been for the last two weeks, we’ve met each other’s closest friends and family, and even just the mundane tasks of going grocery shopping or eating dinner and watching netflix just feel so comfortable with him. I don’t want to seem like I’m being naive, because he’s said it first and feels the same way, but it does feel like this is it for us and we’re just getting started at our life together.