scaredycat

what is wrong with me

i shall not repent for my sins; as my sins make my being whole.

As long as I can remember, all I’ve ever wanted was to be someone’s number one; to be the life of the party because in my head and in my soul, I feel so alone. I don’t think anyone will understand my motive. I have more memories than I can count. I don’t tell everyone what has happened to me because it’s too much to handle. I don’t think they would believe or listen to me either. I want to matter. I want someone who craves me, but am I worthy? Am I good enough to deserve that? How could someone with so many burdening emotions earn that pure love from another? Am I deserving? Am I a burden? Will I ever gain a spot so dear in someone’s heart that they love me throughout all of my senseless insecurities?

i be in the lincon off the bars n taking shots baddie baddie shot o clock gucci mane n topoppgen

never depend on another because people will dissapoint you.

so the pain ive endured was worth it

i just want something to look forward to again

when you show me i finally feel good enough

i have no savior i fought for myself

tear me apart

withstand the illness face your illusions

you only stay in place because you are too frightened. pick up your feet and move on.