Hi 😉

Is that weird age where you want to work but most jobs don’t want you or won’t hire until your sixteen. It’s that age where you know in a year you’ll be able to drive somewhat and still the year is going by so slow. It’s six years to little and Fifteen years too much.

Teen years are years too awkward and too consuming.

Im depressed and it’s not that depression where watching funny youtubers and quirky movies and listening to relatable songs fix it or make it better.

It’s hollow, it’s all consuming, it’s disgusting. It’s not knowing when it will end or how it will end. It’s feeling like you haven’t made any progress and everything triggers some reaction in you. It’s feeling like every question can only be answered with “I don’t know” because I really don’t know. How much is too much or where I’m going. When will it stop?

Sometimes I wish for just once I could stop thinking.

The other day I was walking to school and my mind was in the clouds thinking about I don’t know let’s say something relatable. And it just snapped how without even thinking I WALKED STRAIGHT TO SCHOOL. It’s so sad to know that my brain has it engraved where to go how to get there. It’s doesn’t question and I haven’t questioned it until this month.

It’s been a good year or couple of months. Something I’ve always loved to do is read and this year I decided to read historical fiction that took place in real events that happened and shaped our countries. I recommend the book White Gardenia —Belinda Alexandr. Now I’m the worst person to summarize books because I don’t do a tiny paragraph I GO ALL IN anyways I’ll add to pictures the front cover and the summary at the back. Now HERES the thing the author does a really bad job at summarizing the book. Like I almost didn’t pick it up because it just seemed so boring. Another thing is how the summary is worded I thought it was going to be a Sarah’s Key style book. Like the characters switch of and yeah. I hope you enjoy the book as much as I did. Not going to lie a few salty boys were lost during this book. ( I cried. Yup I know such a surprise ) I’m hoping to read Tuscan rose and just ahhh I want to read it now!!! I might try to find it online but I always think for these books it’s better to have it like the hard copy. So instead of throwing your phone to the wall you can throw the book. Enjoy!! ✌️✌️👌