- run on sentences with grammar errors and a long ass paragraph that should have been broken up. I it all flow with the words in my head. I apologize for nothing.
It was nothing that I hoped for and
Everything that I didn't want
I saw the moon with the stars shining bright
while you stayed relaxing in the warmth of the sun
I warmed my hands to keep the cold away
holding my coat tight around me keep the
cold at bay while you were inside snuggled
up in bed with the heater cranked up to
one hundred degrees. I walked down the
side of the road just to clear my head
of thoughts with my hands in my pocket
and a tune in my head. Then you dove on
past in in your car rushing to get home
and make food for the kids with a show
on the screen. While you're cooking your spaghetti
and a side of meatballs here I am waiting in line
just to order food for my trip going home.
I'm listening to music just to try not to think
of the times that have past and the love
that I lost while you're chatting with your
friends and reminiscing of your past. A
past that I try to forget smoking packs
back to back just to try to relax. It's
a whirlwind of a life when nothing goes right
when the problems keep on stacking and the
joy of life fades out. Memories just as sharp
as the day that it happend laughter and joy
not a care in the world. Its the same as
you feel though the object is different
loving life with no cares and a beer in
your hand.Your smile is my sadness of times
never coming, with a world gone dark without
the light from your eyes. The love isn't there
and I just cant seem to find my way home
when theres no where to go and you turned
me away. I walked away as you shut the
front door, walking down the road in
the pouring down rain, while you play
with the kids and you smile in the laughter.
I want it to end,, this train wreck that
keeps going, crashing through bridges
step by step until I'm stuck in the water.
There are no burning bridges when I'm all
soaking wet with not a dime in my pocket
and my dreams left in smoke. The best that
is in me has all dried up, it's useless,
not fertile, and I'm all withered up. The
sunlight has left me and so I went numb,
out of sight I am lost of the path in the dark.
I know what I want but I cannot have. These
yearnings of times when I lived in the sun
as your eyes captured mine with your loving
warmth. Now the sun never rises while I
