𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐈 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝

More than anything right now I want to feel numb. I want to not feel. I want to fast forward to that day I feel okay again. I can’t. I can only continue to grow. Heartbreak is one of the worst pains especially when you’re being quarantined. My head is throbbing from crying. I don’t feel like eating and all I want to do is call you. That’s not an option anymore, you can’t be my best friend anymore. I’ll learn to be okay with that but today I’ll mourn.

Deep, Deep down i wanted it to be different this time with you.

“The saddest end to a relationship is one where you have to break up with somebody when you’re still in love with them. It sounds bizarre but it happens, because the truth is, as powerfull and as thrilling as it may be, being in love doesn’t always mean you’re happy. You can continue to love someone even after they’ve hurt you, but you know deep inside that it won’t ever be the same again.”

my mind is wrapped around you but i wish it were my arms instead

“And even if we never talk again, please remember that I’m forever changed by who you are and what you meant to me”