gold love

LILI REINHART, MADELAINE PETSCH, & CAMILA MENDES via Instagram

i'm acending

Dua Lipa - Future Nostalgia (Official Lyrics Video)

Ilya's fluttery hands when he's overwhelmed by Shane (insp by @gloryhollanovjah)

“I miss you. Anytime there’s something funny or mom says something extra or there’s… I go to call you. Or I’ll get in my car and start driving to your house. My mind keeps reaching for you. It’s like a reflex, you know? When you love someone. There should be a word for it- you probably know the word for it. Cause when you lose your person it’s… the reflex doesn’t get the memo. I keep reaching for you. And I open up a door and then I slam into a brick wall. It doesn’t matter how many times I slam into that wall, I just- I keep reaching for you. And then losing you. I lose you a hundred times a day.”

bitch ilya!!!

2/? Iconic Scenes That Permanently Altered My Brain Chemistry → GREY'S ANATOMY (2005 - ????) S02E05: "Bring the Pain"

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photographed by Ashley Armitage for Polyester Magazine (February 2025)

ILYA ROZANOV APPRECIATION WEEK — day four: favorite trait

sabrina carpenter for variety.

ilya rozanov week & day two -> favourite look

5x14 Dumb Luck

OLIVIA RODRIGO stupid song (Behind The Scenes)

“When our childhood homes are chaotic and dangerous, we learn that the way to stay safe is to always be on alert — hypervigilant. Our nervous system never calms down because it’s constantly on the lookout for the next bomb that is going to explode [...] As the show goes on, we will learn that underneath Ilya’s extremely hard shell is the heart of a squishy teddy bear wrapped in a warm blanket, but it takes YEARS for Shane to see it. When we look at Ilya through the lens of what he learned as he grew up, it makes sense why he behaves the way he does. We can even have empathy for the level of hypervigilance and fear he lives with. I like to lay things out this way because it’s usually a hell of a lot harder to give ourselves that same grace. We have an idea of who we “should” be in our heads, and when we don’t live up to that we assume it’s because we’re a failure, a useless waste of space. None of that is true: we are behaving in ways that make complete sense when we understand how our nervous system was trained to respond to our environment.” — Reading Ilya Rozanov through the lens of trauma.

PHOEBE TONKIN as HAYLEY MARSHALL 2.11 — "Brotherhood of the Damned" | The Originals requested by my lovely darling @atleastforthenight ♥