nothing was my everything

ragebaiter x ragebaited

Before I open my heart to you guys, please check out the vetting/verifications posts below.

1. @el-shab-hussein and @nabulsi # 151 on the spreadsheet of Vetted Gaza Fundraisers List

2. @riding-with-the-wild-hunt HERE.

3. My latest blog titled "Traumatized in Ireland While my Family is Facing Death and Starvation in Gaza" shared widely HERE

The short video will give you a quick glimpse of my story: 1. A young university lecturer in Gaza

2. Then displaced with my family and losing our house

3. Then traveled to Ireland to study and try to support and evacuate my family.

Every night I sleep in Ireland while my family sleeps under bombardment face starvation, fear and the cold of winter in tents.

People sleep to rest. I sleep to see nightmares.

Every night feels like a horror movie I must live, not watch. I wake up tired, shaken, and broken by the images my mind creates.

I had an amazing stable life with my family in Gaza before the war turned our world upside down.

I was a young, ambitious lecturer at the Islamic University of Gaza, teaching English and linguistics. I loved to motivate and empower my students so they can reach their full potential.

When the war broke out, I was displacement with my family multiple times in places I did not know existed in the Gaza Strip. Sometimes we literally ran for our lives under heavy bombardment and learned what a near-death experience actually meant.

Five months into the war, my Irish university managed to get me out of Gaza. Ever since I evacuated and left my entire family in Gaza (parents, siblings, nephews, nieces), I woke up every day so tired from horrible horrible horrible nightmares, wishing to end my life.

But then I remember: If I give up, who will help my family survive? Who will help me get them out when the crossing opens again?

I saw the constant bombardment every day live in the news, and my family was dispersed in different places in the Gaza Strip, running for their lives, struggling to survive.

The misery and suffering continue until today after we lost our house and the cold of winter if freezing them all, especially my elderly parents and young nephews and nieces.

HOWEVER...

Hard times do not only create strong people; they also reveal the goodness and humanity in others. And Gaza needs the world’s goodness now more than ever.

My family lost their home. They now live in tents, shivering in the cold. Rainwater enters every time it rains. They have no electricity, no clean water, no cooking gas, and no safety. Survival itself has become a battle.

I have been dedicating all my efforts to helping my family survive in the current situation in Gaza and apply for reunification visas with the support of my college and friends here in Ireland.

Every single member of my family counts the seconds until the day we all reunify in Ireland and live a safe, normal life like we have been dreaming for more than two years

This can only be possible with your kindness, support and humanity.

Please consider donating if you can, share our story, reblog our post, and amplify our voice. You have no idea how much you can help in getting my family out of the living hell of Gaza to safety.

When the world becomes numb to Palestinian suffering, please choose not to turn away.

Please 'follow' me to stay updated!

Thank you for reading. Thank you for caring.

Mahmoud

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They are my oxygen, my world, and my reason for living. I am deeply grateful to everyone who has stood by us. Thank you from the depths of my heart.

My family lived a simple life filled with love and hope. Children played and went to school with joy, and my family dreamed of a bright future. However, the war destroyed our lives in Gaza. We were exposed to the horrors of war that turned our lives upside down.

On a tragic day, the war completely destroyed our home, leaving my family homeless and unprotected. The children are deprived of education and are in dire need of medical treatment due to the difficult health conditions they face. The parents are trying with all their might to secure basic needs such as food, clothing, and shelter, but limited resources make this nearly impossible. The tent they live in does not protect them from the cold of winter or the heat of summer.

My children Aya, Israa, Lian, Baraa ,aboud and Samar need your donations and generous support.

My family faces daily challenges to survive, but they hold out hope that there are kind hearts that can help us. They desperately need your support and donations to secure medical treatment for the children, provide safe shelter, and meet their basic needs.

Every donation, no matter how small, will be a ray of hope that will help them overcome their ordeal and rebuild their lives. Thank you for your generosity and support 🙏💔

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my campaing vetted by:

@a-shade-of-blue

@90-ghost

@nabulsi

From what I understand, Lean was having some trouble with her old fundraiser and her sister Ola (@/olagazza4) decided to share the funds of her fundraiser, which has been previously vetted (Check one of my previous reblogs to see how)

I did get contacted by another account @/gazaaboud1, and when I went to do a Google Image Search on pictures on that specific account, one of them came back to Lean's old fundraiser. So I messaged them saying that I wasn't going to reblog their post as I was worried they had stolen the image, but didn't say where I had specifically seen the image, only that I had seen it on another fundraiser.

But since then, @/gazaaboud1 has messaged me, letting me know that they are Lean. They even provided a screenshot of our previous conversation

(Below is a conversation between me and Lean (@/leangaza) that was sent by @/gazaaboud1) (I'm the grey messages and Lean is the blue messages

Here is that same message, from my perspective

This campaign is vetted by association, as Lean's sister Ola is vetted, but I do not have the proof of Ola confirming that Lean is her sister right now

So for now, they are unvetted

Lean had changed her old fundraiser (that had problems) to Ola's in this post and when I asked her about that, she told me they were sisters. Ola was able to confirm this to me.

Ola's fundraiser has been vetted by @/gazavetters, it's #514 on their spreadsheet.

Ola and Lean are together and are taking care of their children together. They're struggling a lot keeping them safe and fed.

Lean has now changed the fundraiser in this post again to a new one. I have sent a message to both of them to confirm that this is Lean's new fundraiser, and when I receive an answer, I will update, but for now, below the cut are some screenshots of my conversations with Lean and Ola, confirming they are sisters.

(I am also not a vetter and just passing on information!)

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