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if i tell you ethel cain is my favorite artist i basically just told you my entire life story and it’s up to you to interpret the lyrics

people who think that my way and expectations should have been pre-release singles (probably for their upbeat nature) are creating an image for the album that would have been completely misleading about its thesis. drop dead and the cure work as pre-release singles with both being the "openings" of their respective halves "girl so in love" and "you seem pretty sad". my way is an excellent song channelling insecurities and comparing yourself to other girls while being in a relationship, but it's also very similar thematically to obsessed which was the single for "guts (spilled)", so it's repetitive. expectations is, in my opinion, a stark outlier for the album and is definitely more similar to those angry post-breakup songs that we have a myriad of from many artists. while it stands as an intriguing song hiding insecurities and unhealthy coping mechanisms from the aforementioned breakup, it would have been severely misleading as a pre-release single. it is perhaps the least self-reflective song written on the album, expressing anger and frustrations about an ex and putting up extremely high walls for any future prospects. this song as a lead single or second pre-release single would give an idea for this album that is more dramatic and punchy than it actually is (it would also be fuel for paternity testing olivia's songs by "confirming" her breakup with louis partridge which we have known about for a while, but that's besides the point). olivia talks about in interviews about how she's very interested in how love makes you insane and sad in ways you don't realise, and though this is one of her examples of it, it makes perfect sense that she wouldn't lead with it in order to capture a more melancholic, introspective take on the demise of her relationship.

all im going to say about the penultimate episode of the boys is that i will not be surprised if the finale next week kicks in conformitygate-esque theories for a secret last episode & whatnot. because i have very little fate in the ending actually being able to tie up so many loose ends and deliver a satisfying conclusion.

I deadass think steve rogers ending was character assassination and conservative rhetoric (send the progressive man back to the decade epitomes with traditional values for a white picket fence life) but it was also just cruel to steve and bucky. “oh ur just mad ur ship didn’t go canon” no im mad the friendship that was the most important thing in both of their lives was tossed aside and the audience was gaslit into believing it didn’t matter despite three films proving otherwise. steve dropped the shield twice for bucky and would have died rather than live in a world where bucky didn’t remember him. bucky broke thru 70 years of brainwashing at the sound of steve’s voice. their catchphrase was essentially “til death do we part”. the fuck