elliott's laugh was the sweetest melody, soft and lilting and clarke's stomach did flips every time he heard it. when he felt elliott's touch, it was as if something warm inside of his chest stirred, something that had always been there just waiting for elliott's touch. he bit his lower lip, unsuccessfully hiding the boyish and giddy grin that was fighting its way onto his face. "n-next time? i look forward to next time," he nearly tripped over his words before his eyes widened in panic, "not...not that i'm ready for this time to end. in fact, i've, uhm, dreamt about this time. i hope this time, now i mean, lasts for a while." clarke flinched, his fingers curled into his palm in an attempt to stop rambling, to stop spilling all of his secrets. but 'next time' sounded like a promise and god, clarke's head was spinning with the thought of getting to see elliott again. when he felt the gentle touch of elliott's thumb, clarke felt dizzy in the best way, and he looked at elliott with rosy cheeks and a dimpled, lopsided smile. elliott, who burned brighter than the sun, all warmth and effortless charm and clarke, a shy flower aching to bask in his light. he didn't deserve this, he didn't deserve to be seen. and it made him feel vulnerable, but at the same time he wanted to be seen by elliott and for the first time in years, he wanted to be known by someone. by elliott whitaker. brows furrowed when elliott mentioned he'd been okay. "twenty-four hour days? w-wow, you really are superman," a breathless smile and a shake of his head. everything about elliott was incredible. clarke was entirely at elliottโs mercy. before he could stop himself, trembling fingers rose to trace the curve of elliottโs cheek, needing proof that he was real and not some fleeting dream that he'd wake up from. his breath caught, quiet and sharp as his heart nearly leapt from his chest, and he leaned in cautiously, nose brushing nose, and the space between them closed. then, with a reverence that felt like worship, his lips met elliott's softly, hesitantly, as though he were memorizing poetry that was written only in the curve of elliott's lips. it was perfect. but once clarke realized what he'd done, he pulled back, catching his breath before apologizing, "i-i'm so sorry..." his gaze flickered down, avoiding elliott's gaze, "i should've asked before...god, i'm sorry."