This Rebellious Heart of Mine

It’s Mommy’s birthday today. We went out for lunch. We had loads of fun, and no regrets. When hubby and I reached home though, we has a minor debate over certain issues. Solved, anyway.

“If I were to die in my sleep, and all you see is the cold body of mine the next day, looking like I’m still asleep, except I’m no longer breathing. Will you promise you’ll continue to live and be happy?” There was this sudden fear that engulfed my being, when I was showering earlier on. I wanted to tell hubby this. I didn’t. 

I decided to live life without any regrets.

Fear arises because I haven’t been living life to the fullest (at least, not today). I need to come back on track because I’m forgetful. And I easily stray off into fear.

Wonderful week.

I’d be grateful for all. 

And be thankful for many.

I grew up loving fast cars, bad boys, night life and parties. But I’m never really enjoyed doing those as I grow. And that’s how fiction always looked better than anything in real life. HAHA. My love for Initial D in a dedicated post.

DREAM

I’m gonna dream big

And you’re never gonna stop me

I will make it, big

To feel totally recharged over the weekend is a blessing. I’m taking my day into trying more new things.Bring it on!

It’s a three-days reflection this week because I was quite disturbed last Friday. I might have lost touch with dealing with humans. For the past 3 months, I’ve taught myself about self-appreciation, gratitude and kindness. I’ve forgotten about how some humans can be selfish to their own. 

Upon realising, I made sure I never dwell in those emotions and walked on the day, ignoring what could have made the old me, frustrated and angry.

I am glad, I’ve grown so much from last year. 

I wish to continue with this goal of mine, confidently and expressively. 

Best of luck, to myself.

Sailing in the seas up high

Like currents and waves

https://www.dreams.co.uk/sleep-matters-club/your-life-in-numbers-infographic

2020.07.01

This is a good reminder on the first day of July.

What do I want to achieve, to work on, to plan for the rest of 2020?

I intend to use every minute given to work on the future I want to build, with my loved ones. 

I’m amazed.