Stay beautiful, keep it ugly.

I think we're going down.

I always thought that i loved you. From the first time we were together, i found myself thinking about you every damn second. And smiling at every word you said to me. I wanted to spend all of my seconds with you. Your presence was everything i needed to have a nice day. Now, a year has passed. I don't really know what happened to me, or to us. Two months ago, you were trying to go away, but i wanted you to stay. I begged. I cried. I said "please, don't leave!". We got ok again, but then, i've started to feel different. I've started to feel tired. I didn't have the patience to be the one that understands things, and gives up on fights. You had so many problems yourself and i was feeling more like your psychoanalyst. I am so sad to notice that this is happening. I don't want to feel like this, i want to be in love with you again. I want to smile at every word you say to me. I want your presence to be everything i need to have a nice day. I want to feel everything i felt before. But i can't force myself to feel it. And i also can't say goodbye. So, instead, i'm just waiting here, wishing that someday, soon i hope, i manage to feel the same again. Patience is a virtue, and i have it, you know. So i'll wait... I 'll wait because i know i still love you. But i don't know if i'm still in love with you.