ich bin müde

im thinking about reviving this blog but also

im kinda attached to my new one now

since ive had it for almost? just over? b arely? a year?

um if you actually do wanna see me

my blog is @towkken

skeet skeet

still very much dead, my love

so I’m getting rid of this blog.

not really ‘getting rid of it’ so much as moving onto another blog.

it’s been more than two whole years since i began using thirdhostage and i think its time to actively move on. i don’t watch Teamiplier as much as i did a while ago- i don’t ever feel motivated to write about them anymore, either.

i kept trying, after so long, being a dick and persistently promising 2.5k of you stories that you will never receive. it’s not my thing anymore and i personally think it was foolish to dedicate my blog to a facade that was sure to come and go in periods.

not saying that i don’t enjoy Teamiplier, MARVEL anymore- i do enjoy them- but not in this way.

now i still love writing, and even if i’ve lost my touch- i want to regain it.

so now, i’m moving to a different blog altogether. i have created it already and i hope to build its skeleton over the next little while before i reveal to you all it’s name. any one of you can follow me on this path if you wish- for some of you i’ve become close with through this very blog. yet if you don’t wish to join, i hope you enjoyed thirdhostage and my company to the fullest.

i’m restoring and backing up this blog completely before i decide to delete it or leave it be as a reminder of my first steps.

the contents of my new platform include fan/art and imagines all done by me- mainly centering around my art in the forms of OC’s, original pieces every so often, and fanart (comics, scenes, skits) and writing blurbs as they come.

I will be happy to be posting about all my fandoms such as Voltron, YouTube, The Arcana, MARVEL and more as i find them. The idea is to keep it a free blog, bringing in and letting go of fandoms as i gain and lose interest in them. not dedicating my blog to only one or two.

I, August, am staying on tumblr.

during the movie: ahhhhh !

during the end scene/s:

well

it definitely takes time to fully realize/accept if you’re gay or not

I’ve had a friend that for the longest time believed she was bi, because she believed she was attracted to women

but after a while she realized that she wouldn’t feel happy/satisfied in a relationship with another woman- she had never really been with women either, so then she identified as straight

it’s more than normal to go from one and the other, though frustrating

so try something, and think about being in a relationship that way

would you be satisfied? would you be content and happy? think about what makes you feel you only like men/women? what puts you off the other? and what draws you to the one?

but at the same, just because you don’t like a specific member of that gender doesn’t mean you don’t like the gender. it means you don’t like them- so keep an open mind

personally, I have friends that are girls that I find absolutely adorable and I love them a lot. I have found some women attractive as people and I learn to appreciate them. but I could never find myself in a relationship with another women because it wouldn’t satisfy me (emotionally, physically) the way a relationship with a man would

whatever feels strongest and follow your heart only

i don’t think

it’s that bad?

even though i haven't posted an official writing in like half a year

i'm sorry

i keep saying it will come- i make no promises but

bear with me

Deadpool: *disintegrates*

Deadpool: *re-forms*