Writings, feelings, stories, ect.

Please explain to me why I’m the type of person that people start to get to know and will say things like “there’s really no one else like you, you’re wonderful”. Then those same people start texting less and less once I begin to show interest and then eventually just stop replying to me all together.

Those same people then come back months later after ignoring me and tell me how great I am and they wish they would have taken the chance with me and I’m not appreciated enough, like why is it this stupid endless cycle?

Quite frankly, I think it’s bullshit to be gone for over a month, talk to other people, almost landing in multiple relationships, and then getting mad and upset that I’m talking to someone.

I’m not one for facetime personally but damn I could look at that face for hours. You also make video chatting so decent and not awkward and damn. Can I just meet you already?

I just found out that I am getting around $12,000 in grants to pay for my spring and fall semester at UMD. I am so damn happy. This is seriously such a stress reliever, I was worried about taking out hefty loans and if all goes well I won’t have to take out a single dollar!

Slowly learning that my favorite thing to do is send pretty risque photos and just show more and more each time, it’s even better when the guys giving me such great feedback and telling me how much my body is killing him

Today was the second day of tech and it was a long ass day but having friends to text totally helps. I learned a lot about light board and this shows pretty snazzy.

My favorite part was the huge cuddle puddle during tech notes with my two best gay friends. At least a half hour of spooning with Connor was just what I needed.