Confused Hummingbird Notes

I am going to be taking a hiatus from Fandom stuff and writing for the moment. I started a new job in the mental health arena and while the job itself is awesome, it has reminded me that there are some aspects of my life that I have ignored in the past 7 years as I worked towards this goal (i.e. social life, getting out and doing things, travel, exercise, my now very serious quilting hobby). Writing has been a big part of the last 10 years of my life and has, at times, given me a reason to keep going when things looked bleak. But after the giant stories I've crafted here and the many 50+ pages papers written for school, me and my hands are in need of a break.

I'll still be here but if I check this app, it's going to be on the summit of my latest hiked trail, or right before I hop on a plane to my next destination, or between glasses of wine when out with friends, or even when at the numerous quilt shows across the USA.

I've worked so hard to get to a point where I can actually live my life and I'm gonna go do that.

Love,

Me writing for Simon Snow:

Writing for other fandoms be like:

Chapters: 2/? Fandom: 陈情令 | The Untamed (TV) Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī/Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxiàn Characters: Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī, Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxiàn, Lán Huàn | Lán Xīchén, Lán Yuàn | Lán Sīzhuī Summary:

WIP for Bad Blood, which honestly has it's own mind and is very dark but hey, why not:

More than six sentences, from Bad Blood:

Simon takes the glass away when I am done, then leans in and licks up the blood that stains my lower lip.

It turns into a kiss. 

I open my mouth for him. 

His tongue touches mine. I let him kiss and suck at my tongue and lips. My fangs are down. He lets his drop, too. His are a bit wider than mine. A bit stubbier, but no less sharp. They touch mine when we kiss. 

“I want to bite you,” he says. “I want you to bite me.”

“Simon…”

“Please. I want to feel your fangs in me.”

Chapters: 4/? Fandom: Simon Snow & Related Fandoms, Carry On Series - Rainbow Rowell Rating: Explicit Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch/Simon Snow, Lamb/Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch Characters: Lamb (Simon Snow), Simon Snow, Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch, Penelope Bunce, Agatha Wellbelove, Shepard (Simon Snow), Original Male Character(s) Summary:

Things after Lotus of Siam go a bit differently. Lamb gives Baz his first taste of human blood, and a series of bad choices follow. And it's Baz's friends who suffer the consequences.

Including Simon.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Simon Snow & Related Fandoms, Carry On Series - Rainbow Rowell Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch/Simon Snow, Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch & Simon Snow Characters: Simon Snow, Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch Additional Tags: Lingerie, Dom/sub Undertones, Lots of tongue Series: Part 1 of Baz's Birthday Summary:

Companion piece to Redline.

Decided to do a companion piece for my EGF fic, Redline, where Baz goes through Simon's stash of "to be returned" items and decides to break his boyfriend's brain a bit.

TW: mentions of death, abuse, narcissism, and also yes I use the DSM which I will acknowledge can be problematic but the characters are white men so they sort of fit who the DSM is based on.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Simon Snow & Related Fandoms, Carry On Series - Rainbow Rowell Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch/Simon Snow, Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch & Simon Snow Characters: Simon Snow, Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch Additional Tags: feral baz, bazlerie, Lingerie Summary:

It's Baz's birthday and Simon has a present for him.

It's him. The present is Simon.

Chapters: 24/? Fandom: Simon Snow & Related Fandoms Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch/Simon Snow, Lamb/Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch, Simon Snow/Agatha Wellbelove, Penelope Bunce/Shepard Characters: Simon Snow, Dev (Simon Snow), Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch, Agatha Wellbelove, Penelope Bunce, Lamb (Simon Snow), Shepard (Simon Snow), Niall (Simon Snow) Summary:

Simon is a chef trying to make his way in a big, affluent city. He works in a designer restaurant, Unir, that caters to the rich and famous in order to pay bills while he's trying to get his bakery business off the ground. Every part of the restaurant rubs him the wrong way: the fake food, the cowardly staff, as well as the haughty customers. He's usually able to keep his resentment in check, but one day a snobby interior designer and his realtor boyfriend come in, and Simon is unable to keep himself from ruining their wedding proposal. Now he's stuck in a city with rent he can't afford, no job, a ruined reputation, and not many options.

I put my hand over the keypad. “Why do you have to do that?”

“Do what?”

“That. Be an ass.”

“I thought you said it took two.”

“I’m here with a fucking olive branch, for fuck’s sake, you…” I pause when he raises a brow. I force myself to breathe in and shut down the thought. “You know what. No. I wasn’t going to do this. I told myself I wasn’t,” I remove my hand. I motion to the keypad. “Please.”

“No, tell me what you were going to say.” He turns to me and waits. The movement brings forward a hint of citrusy perfume. Citrusy and cedar-y.

“No. Because I’ll say something, then you’ll say something, and the next thing I know, I’m leaving with another ten thousand dollar check, which is fine, but that’s not what I’m here for.”

Mr. Pitch scoffs and waves his card in front of the keypad. The elevator door opens. “Go on.”

“It’s your elevator.”

He goes in and runs his hand through his hair in frustration. I follow.

I set down the case as the car gets going. I unbutton my cuffs and start to fold them back. I look up at him, but he’s watching me. He looks away when I catch him.

“What are you here for, then, if not to irritate me?” he asks. His voice seems to have lost a bit of its bite, though.

“To make things right.”

He scoffs. “Make things right?”

“Yeah.” I face him. “Make it right.”

“That makes no sense. You were paid for your time and effort. There’s nothing else you need to do.”

“It doesn’t sit right with me. I don’t care what you think about it.”

“You’re impossible,” he mutters.

“I’m impossible? Have you met you?”

Mr. Pitch laughs.

Chapters: 7/? Fandom: Simon Snow & Related Fandoms Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch/Simon Snow, Lamb/Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch, Simon Snow/Agatha Wellbelove, Penelope Bunce/Shepard Characters: Simon Snow, Dev (Simon Snow), Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch, Agatha Wellbelove, Penelope Bunce, Lamb (Simon Snow), Shepard (Simon Snow), Niall (Simon Snow) Summary:

Simon is a chef trying to make his way in a big, affluent city. He works in a designer restaurant, Unir, that caters to the rich and famous in order to pay bills while he's trying to get his bakery business off the ground. Every part of the restaurant rubs him the wrong way: the fake food, the cowardly staff, as well as the haughty customers. He's usually able to keep his resentment in check, but one day a snobby interior designer and his realtor boyfriend come in, and Simon is unable to keep himself from ruining their wedding proposal. Now he's stuck in a city with rent he can't afford, no job, a ruined reputation, and not many options.