I know you don’t feel much right now, and that’s okay because your heart is safe nestled in my palm. You don’t know it but it’s beating and thriving and living, even if the world is dimming and quieting. Change is surrounding us, for good and for bad, and your heart is tired and that’s okay. We all need a break, we all need a breath, we all need a chance to give up for a moment and let someone catch us. And I have you.

The numb is spreading and you’re scared but not because it’s an escape and a reprieve to the ache and the pain and the loss. You’re not sad but you’re not happy. You’re not broken but you’re not healed. You’re existing, caught in a limbo that has its hold on you. You don’t feel seen but I see you. I see the struggle and the way you’re tired from the fight. I see how you give into the void, just for a minute. And if you lose yourself along the way, i’ll be there to pull you back because you’re constantly in my orbit.

This moment, this span of time, that you feel trapped in won’t last forever. You’ll escape, when you’re ready. Right now, you’re overwhelmed and overstimulated and your mind is screaming “just give me a fucking second!” And that’s okay. This is part of the journey, for you. So take a breath and take another. Be numb and then be ready because i’m tugging on your hand.