Today's Document
if i look back, i am lost
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Origami Around
PUT YOUR BEARD IN MY MOUTH
let's talk about Bridgerton tea, my ask is open
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Aqua Utopia｜海の底で記憶を紡ぐ
shark vs the universe
❣ Chile in a Photography ❣
almost home
NASA
EXPECTATIONS
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Jules of Nature
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@thetomeoftatteredthoughts
Hello
I share some of my (not too good) art here and blog random things.
Stuff I like:
-games (rimworld, warhammer 40000 rogue trader, modded minecraft)
-animation (murder drones, hazbin hotel, helluva boss, the amazing digital circus, ena)
-scp (sarkicism, cotbg, site-17, admonition, vanguard, redtape, rounderhouse, tufto, placeholder mcdoctorate)
-random things (doodling, 17776)
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Is recreationally laying down on the floor as bad for you as bedrotting?
iits probably fine, might even be better if you dont use the phone on the floor (does bedrotting require doomscrollin to count as bedrottin?)
hey, tag this with a food people get really upset about you not liking
Okay let me try and word this.
Imagine playing a video game, a top down simulator type focused on a single building. You can move the camera to different areas in the building and do things over there, but if something happens in another part of the building, you'll get an alert. Like an intruder breaks in or a fire starts. And the people you're watching and interacting with directly or indirectly will handle everything on their own. You don't have to get involved unless you really want to.
Now imagine you're simultaneously playing in another building in the game. You're not using a different screen, you don't need to switch between the two locations, you're doing both at once.
Now imagine this but you're playing an entire town. A town in a country, on a continent, on a planet, that you are always aware of everything interesting or important to you happening as soon as it happens. You know when deals are made between individuals from the kids in school to the highest nations. You know when the power plants fail before the lights go out. You know every death and birth of every animal on the planet, including humans, and can follow that death or birth, that corpse or that baby, to wherever they may end up.
And as all this is going on, which has been going on for so long nobody can actually remember where it started anymore, you are thinking. You are planning. You have a goal in mind for everything you're doing, a goal that is entirely in your head, by the way. You don't need a spreadsheet or pad of paper to figure anything out. You can do it on your own. You have always done it on your own. This isn't your first game, or your second or tenth. But it might be your current favorite out of the countless games you're simultaneously playing.
You are always aware of this. You are always aware of what's happening everywhere no matter what building, what country, what planet, you're currently focused on.
And sometimes... Sometimes you decide to do something different, something important or just fun. You go into first person. You possess or create a body and you interact with the world (worlds) you're watching over. Most humans will never know who you really are. The ones that do, when they realize the truth... They often go mad in the presence of your malevolence. And it's a beautiful thing to you, or so they think as they see your false face for the last time.
This is the closest approximation I can imagine for what it's like to be Nyarlathotep, at least how I write him. (And that's without addressing the Dreamlands!)
fascinating perspective into what it might mean to be a being such as nyarlathotep
some people like to get mad at disability benefits because they think its unfair people who dont work get a payout from the government while they have to work 50 hours at the human suffering factory every week. but if you tell them "yeah that sucks i think you should also get a universal allowance and not have to work 50 hours at the human suffering factory every week" thats apparently the wrong answer.
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the best fruits are hardest to open
this fucking bowling ball is gonna be delicious i know it
i’m glad we don’t have to hunt for our food anymore.. i don’t even know where Sandwiches live
how it feels when the thing i like is something i really like and thats because i really like it and it makes me happy to like it
IDENTITY EMERGES ORGANICALLY FROM ACTION
IF YOU DONT DO ANYTHING YOU ARENT ANYONE. SORRY
here’s this while i’m still processing the movie
dying at the woke dog part
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Also ik this is kinda nsfw and a buck wild thing to say to a stranger on the internet but masturbation is technically a type of light exercise. So do what u will with that information.
(Feel free to delete this if it makes u feel uncomfortable at all, i can be a bit too shameless sometimes)
Nobody wants to hear this but I am actually genuinely bad at jacking off. I have no idea how it's possible to be bad at it, but every instruction advice thing I find starts with "just do whatever feels good :)" and I fail step 1.
...Okay, that actually might explain a lot. You said you're being treated for adhd and depression. Other reblogger explained about DHEA insufficiency, so now I get to mention: anhedonia! Explained with a better patient-facing viewpoint here . It's not always solved by antidepressants, and depending on the cocktail you take, it may even be a side effect (loss of libido and ability to achieve sexual pleasure is actually a pretty common one). If you are anhedonic, no wonder you don't find anything pleasurable in exercise and regard it as a thankless chore. It might not be that exercise can never ever be fun for you, or that you're bad at jerking off: it might just be that your brain is currently incapable of registering pleasure for assorted reasons.
What if it was already like this before surgery. Or medication.
My guess is complex dissosiation, which is a pretty common mental defebse mechanism for someone raised in an emotionally unsafe household. The good news is, it doesn't have to be permanent. Bad news is, the only way out is through, and it's gonna take learning to feel comfortable and safe in your body and facing all the old emotional gunk before you can do anything like excersize or jerk off without hating it all
Fucking hell gotta go on a whole soul quest just to jack off.
> open up wallet
> full of blood
vampire world
Someone should make a disco elysium spiritual successor that takes place in a maze and follows a protagonist who has to eat all the dots in the maze whilst avoiding several ghosts
you can actually homebrew this in d&d 5e
SHE IS FINALLY FREEEEEEEEEEEE
Anyway i was gone but i discovered myself that im in fact a guy that tried to gaslit himself that hes nonbinary in order to not feel the need to fully transition bcuz of his family and scared bcuz doesn't know how to be a man.
I got my hands on testosterone but I'm microdosing it in hope that the changes will be slower and family wont notice but eventually i will need to come out (I know I cant run from it forever) but they probably gonna know faster that my gf is trans than me since shes really close to going to court to change her gender (tbh suprised that my family doesnt know now since she never "boymodded")
Im way less depressed since starting t and im not going to drop it now but man transitioning is scary
He/him pronouns now please and thank u
congrats on starting your transition!
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it’s weird that professional letters are supposed to start with “dear.” i don’t even call my mom that
my darling hiring manager. my springtime rose. if hired i will bring a strong work ethic to this position
see unfortunately I have this condition where if I am not explicitly told that I am a part of the ingroup then I will assume I must be part of the outgroup
