The Thoughts of a Wallflower

I didn’t think I would be writing to you again, but it’s cathartic and life has been difficult lately, so I thought I would pick this back up. Honestly, I stopped writing because I didn’t have the words and my last letter was happy and optimistic, that I kind of felt like an impostor feeling depressed and down again.

But, I have come to realize that life is a series of ups and downs. I did have moments of clarity and bliss and joy and those waves will come back. It’s okay and normal to feel down. I think as much as I don’t like it, I have come to accept that depression and anxiety are a part of me. They will come and go throughout my life and that is okay. I try to focus on gratitude- being thankful for the ones that encourage and support me and love me unconditionally.

I hope you have that in your life, friend. I am sending you unconditional love because you are amazing and worthy.

Love Always,

LIFE GETS BETTER. I promise to you that it does. So please, whatever you are going through, stick it out. Muster every single ounce of your being to push through it, because it’ll be worth it.

I used to think I was incapable of happiness. As insane as that sounds. Years down the line, I accepted the fact that happiness was not an emotion that existed in me. So I spent my life devoted to making others happy and spreading joy. Because even though I couldn’t be happy, I certainly could live my existence out by making others happy. Rewind to this time last year, I was in the DEEPEST depression. Never got so dark and hopeless, almost got to the point where I attempted suicide. But I focused my energy on my loved ones, and fast forward to here we are today. I have been fighting depression and anxiety almost my entire life, so if I could get here, so can you.

I have never felt this happy in my entire life. It’s possible. It requires hard work, determination, perseverance, and support and unconditional love from your close family and friends.

I hope you all reach to where I am very soon. I know you will. You can do this and I will be here for you if you need my support and encouragement.

Love Always,