Diary Of A Confused Girl 🤍

I just want to kill her ex like my gf cares more about her problems than mine (who cares about me anyway)

But I know I shouldn’t feel that way.

Her ex is mentally unstable as I heard but I’m scared she will get back with her because she don’t want her to do something …

I feel like I’m not enough .

I hate myself

And my gf told me to be "kind" with about her ex NO TF YOU GIVE HER ALL THE ATTENTION THAT I WOULD HAVE DREAMED OF HAVING.

But I know she loves me but does she loves me more than her ?

I need to talk to her but how ?

Like with my girlfriend I could spend a whole day with her (and trust me that’s a lot for me) and not even feel tired .

I can cuddle with her for a whole night and not feel the need to wash myself and scrap my skin off .

I love her some much omg I can’t tell you how much .

BTW I MISS HER SOOOOOO MUCH (and she misses me too … <3 )

Like I’m not even kidding my girlfriend is so incredibly incredible that she could do like whatever she wants to me right now…

I’m just rolling in my bed I miss her so much omg .

I think I could moan from how much I need her touch like wtf is wrong with me …

Because basically we had a sleepover at her best friend’s house and she was SO touchy with me like (I think she got me wet ngl) and she kept touching my boobs and we kissed the whole night and I really was desperate for her touch like ew I disgust myself.

Well bye …

I see you, I know you’re struggling, you’re valid.

Lots of love , you matter, I see you .

I FINALLY KISSED HER !

So basically we were (my best friend, her , and me)at her place and at exactly 1 am she told my best friend that she really liked her best friend (so me) .

My heart stopped and then started rushing , and after 30 seconds of me being shocked…

I KISSED HER .

It was honestly the most awkward kiss ever cause she kinda fell on me (BUT I DON’T CARE)

After that my best friend got out of the room (I don’t remember why)

And the music dirty Diana started playing AND AT THAT MOMENT THE KISS WAS IN-CRE-DIBLE .

Like OMGGG I can’t stop thinking about it !

And you also need to know that yesterday we went to the movies and she hold my hand the whole time (and she did the thumb thing 😫) and when we got out it was already dark outside, and we danced outside together and before coming back home she hugged me so tight that felt like heaven.

SO NOW WE’RE TOGETHER !

G-bye

So my crush just told that …

SHE WANTED TO KISS ME .

LIKE YES BABY COME HERE

And we are getting REALLY CLOSE.

That it for today

G-bye

Okay so my crush FINALLY told me that she liked me back 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

She told me that I was cute and smart and funny LIKE THANKS MY LOVE .

But she also told me that she was afraid to hurt me .

SO I DON’T KNWO WHAT WE ARE RN 😔

BUT SHE STILL LIKES ME SOOOO 🤭

SHE REJECTED ME

Okay so … She got out of a difficult relationship so now she just told me that : that’s so cute . I’m happy that you figured out that you where bisexual.

SHE DIDN’T TOLD ME NO …BUT SHE DIDN’T TOLD ME YES ! I’m gonna cry …

But since it’s the best friend of my best friend …

She told her that she liked me a lot but her past relationship was complicated.

SO YOU’RE TELLING ME THAT I COULD HAVE BEEN WITH HER IF THAT B-TCH DIDN’T BROKE HER HEART !?

I’m so sad rn

So yeah I’m still confused cause WHY DID GOD MADE ME LOVE HER 😔🙏

She said : don’t be confused baby it’s soo cool !

Like hello !? I’m blushing LIKE CRAZY.

WHAT DO I DO !?

So for now I just told her : Don’t take that as a coming out from me 😔🙏

But I’m scared but I’m soo happy

Wtf is wrong with me !?

G-bye

You can’t tell me I didn’t ate one this one 🤍🩷🩶