Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā herĀ wordsĀ hitĀ mjĀ hard,Ā squareĀ inĀ theĀ chest,Ā andĀ sheāsĀ reeling,Ā headĀ noddingĀ āĀ becauseĀ sheĀ understands.Ā Ā sheĀ understandsĀ exactly,Ā inĀ aĀ wayĀ thatĀ almostĀ hasĀ herĀ headĀ spinning.Ā Ā āĀ heāsĀ notĀ reallyĀ thatĀ easyĀ toĀ giveĀ upĀ on.Ā āĀ Ā sheĀ says,Ā teethĀ sinkingĀ intoĀ herĀ bottomĀ lip.Ā Ā āĀ thereĀ āĀ arenātĀ aĀ lotĀ ofĀ peopleĀ likeĀ him.Ā āĀ Ā sheĀ hadĀ neverĀ caredĀ forĀ someoneĀ theĀ wayĀ sheĀ didĀ him.Ā Ā hisĀ heartĀ wasĀ soĀ good.Ā Ā heĀ wasĀ soĀ good.Ā Ā heĀ hadĀ soĀ quicklyĀ becomeĀ herĀ favoriteĀ person.Ā Ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āĀ whatĀ didĀ heĀ do?Ā Ā yourĀ peterĀ āĀ āĀ Ā eyebrowsĀ furrow.Ā Ā sheāsĀ curious,Ā sheĀ canātĀ seemĀ toĀ helpĀ herself.Ā Ā asĀ herĀ counterpartĀ said,Ā storiesĀ canĀ echoĀ throughĀ theĀ universe.Ā Ā sheādĀ likeĀ toĀ beĀ prepared.Ā Ā afterĀ all,Ā sheĀ knewĀ asĀ wellĀ asĀ anyoneĀ thatĀ peterĀ parkerĀ operatedĀ onĀ hisĀ own.Ā Ā heĀ madeĀ decisionsĀ withoutĀ stoppingĀ toĀ think,Ā allĀ inĀ theĀ nameĀ ofĀ protectingĀ andĀ helpingĀ thoseĀ heĀ caresĀ about.Ā Ā hisĀ heartĀ wasĀ good,Ā butĀ stubborn,Ā alwaysĀ thinkingĀ heĀ knewĀ whatĀ wasĀ best.Ā Ā sheĀ wasĀ lucky,Ā sheĀ realized,Ā thatĀ herĀ peterĀ didĀ notĀ tryĀ toĀ pushĀ herĀ away.Ā Ā heĀ letĀ herĀ help.Ā Ā āĀ whatĀ choicesĀ didĀ heĀ makeĀ forĀ you?Ā ā
Ā it looksĀ like she alreadyĀ knew the answer. tippingĀ her head down, she tries to think of a logical way to explain this.Ā itās alwaysĀ been aboutĀ protection, her safety.Ā it was paved with good intentions but in the end, she valued truth above everything else. no matter how delirious or stubbornĀ thatĀ madeĀ her look.Ā āĀ heĀ pushedĀ meĀ awayĀ more times than one. the root had always, always been for my protection and I understood that.Ā but peter, he never explained it like thatĀ heĀ just ..Ā ā went.Ā ā and he didnāt letĀ me weigh in, argue, nothing. I know itās because he loves me but I love him too. it hurts after a while. why canāt I worry ? who takes care of him ?Ā ā
taking a minute, mary jane presses her knuckles against her lips.Ā ā he didnātĀ letĀ me in. then our friend passed and .. things just got strained.Ā ā everything building up to that point came crumbling down ever so quickly. she tried to regain focus from before, but it still brought tears to her eyes.Ā Ā ā weĀ didĀ reconcileĀ though. not as fast as I wished, yet sooner than I had originally feared.Ā āĀ there were complications in the easy way but still, mary jane wished they hadnāt been so stupid.Ā āĀ through the gaps I changed, and he did too. I donāt blame him. I just wish he ran things by me back then instead of burdening himself, or .. unintentionally hurting me.Ā ā