“  it’s  really  easy  to get .. caught  up  in all of this. “  the  dust  was  settling and it was a nostalgic  feeling (  now  that  she  could recognize it )  at the  end  of  the day  it was always  touch  and  go .. loss was  just  around the corner and could easily make the day devastating  just as  quick as a victory could.  THEY  FOUND  OUT  SOON  ENOUGH  and  now  it’s  complicated,  but hadn’t it always been ?  she didn’t understand the why and how , any of this was possible  but right  now,  she recognized  this MJ and this PETER, she’s been here before.

          “  in some easy  way , it feels like  nothing can touch you right ? you know  since  i got  here , looking at the two of  you .. I forget you’re  just  kids. it’s weird  looking at it from the outside. “

scott  thanks  u  for  ur  service ,  @obsehrves​

@obsehrves​ asked: ❛  it’s okay , we don’t have to talk about it until you’re ready .  ❜ // things i wish i had been told 

   NO WORDS COULD POSSIBLY SUFFICE, nothing Peter might bring himself to say would be near enough to truly illustrate the overwhelming anguish that takes over every part of him. Physical wounds couldn’t compare in the slightest— it’s as if he doesn’t even notice cuts breaking through his body, cracked ribs burning with each step, half-dried blood and rainwater that cakes the side of his face and still drips from freshly soaked hair. His eyes are red, his throat is hoarse, but the ache of torn skin rings DISTANT compared to what feels like a gaping cavity in his chest. Empty, hollow, GONE. 

                                                                       HE LOST MAY. 

   The world has tried to break Peter Parker many times before. Peter Parker KNOWS LOSS. Yet with this... he almost feels a last thread of innocence snap. Lifetime’s worth of grief comes flooding back, amplified tenfold by fresh pain that makes it feel like his lungs are caving in. He tried so hard, he always did, and... not only did he fail in the end, it’s all his fault. Oh, he knows what she said— he couldn’t forget it if he tried. And the recent appearance of his counterparts, they’ve given him the push he so desperately needed before nearly giving up. But right now, in the eye of the storm before their last mission... all Peter can feel is heaviness. 

...   @obsehrves​   sent ,   ✐   for   a   random   starter   from   my   muse.

🕷 ⸻ ❝ i like to think that he gives people hope . . . that eventually , everything's gonna be alright . ❞