Soul Scribble.

Infinite Jest, Page 199: "That Door"

This is what unconditional love is: loving someone even with their flaws. This is what it isn’t: having to love someone’s flaws. We are made out of imperfections. You do not have to force yourself to fall for every one of them. There will be people out there who will hurt you. There will be people who shout. People who lie. People who cannot trust you even when you have spilled every secret you have ever engraved on the side of your ribcage. There will be people who are closed up like a fist. People who are so open they will never be willing to commit. People who can never break the habit of leaving you and then coming back when you are missed.  You do not have to take it. When you love somebody, if it is enough to keep you together, then stay. When you love somebody, if it creates cracks in your smile, if it is a constant state of a fractured heart, if it never amounts to anything more than promises to do better and fighting when it doesn’t– it is okay to leave them. It does not mean you are a liar for all the times you have said I love you. It does not invalidate the work you put into your relationship. It does not make you selfish to walk away from somebody who does enough to strike a match but not to set the fire. Sometimes there will be people who make you happy but can never keep you warm.  It is okay to say goodbye to someone even when there are still parts of them you love.

I spent a lot of time thinking about who I should be, and most of that time I was thinking about others rather than myself.

It’s a strange feeling to miss something you don’t even know.

Infinite Jest, Page 245: These Ways