NO girl dont ruin your early 20s by staying home every saturday and lamenting the death of your childhood while also being afraid to even act like a 20 something year old bc you still feel so young yet so old and lost all at once haha you’re so sexy!

don't come when it's too late.

how to do things that everyone else seems to do no problem

it’s because you’re always in that damn hole that resembles the grave but isn’t

I need something I just don’t know what it is yet

this has been going on for like 20 years by the way.. I will let you all know when I figure it out

at the start of every month everyone reblogs some insane poetry that’s like “august has arrived and again I swallow my bones in the burning sun” and every time I’m like damn that makes no sense. but kind of true.

omg guys happy bone swallowing august

nothing is real and then all of a sudden everything is very real with no warning

my 5 year plan is to get back my joy

wildflowers thriving on the side of the road i see you i love you girls

sometimes i think about how there has always been this dream version of me in my head who knows how to play the piano and can sing in key and charts stars by herself (and w her loved ones too) and reads so many books and studies diligently every day and is top of every academic pursuit and has all these skill-based creative outlets she nourishes constantly and does not have to compromise any of them for the other bc she knows how to budget her time and is not afraid of failure and does not let petty distractions like phone time get in her way. and i'm like oh. i want that really bad. like that truly eclipses everything else in my life

and sometimes i'm derailed by the small things like a fallout w friends or an unkind thing someone may have said to me or social media fomo or instant gratification. but then i remember how my soul aches so badly for knowledge and art that i'm like. it's not worth it to give these momentary things so much weight. i don't want to look back on my deathbed and mourn a girl i never became. and whenever i have a bad day or i'm off track i will look back at this post and remind myself of what truly matters. which is literally this but my brain likes to trick me every time