TheSixthPhoenix

I had to fire up the old tumblr when I realised this. For years I’ve always thought it was ambigious whether Jason intended to kill himself at the end of Bare or whether it was accidental, however on my most recent listen it clicked: he wanted to die.

My reason for this comes down to the final minute and a half of the song bare. He says openly that he wants Peter to know that “he tried” (to live in his world) and literally begs to not leave the moment because he’s aware he will die soon and wants to have as much time as possible, plus the “please know I loved you” (past tense). Don’t know if this has always been obvious and I’m just dumb but it finally clicked and made me sob.

We were right!!! 4 years of being told we were wrong and silly and we where the ones who were right. I know I should care that he died but let's face it he was always gonna, narritivately there was no way he was making it through it (still need my fix it fanfics though). But they way it happened! The entire movie! That kiss! If that isn't vindication I don't know what is

More thoughts to come but as my initial fangirlyness wears off

EDIT: Just to expand on what I meant about Ben’s death being innevitatable. It wouldn’t have worked for him to survive, what would have happened? Would he have gone back with Rey and have the ending celebration be stopped by the arrival of Ben, there is no way Poe and Finn would have accepted him without another movie’s worth of narrative which we weren’t just going to get so that wouldn’t work. So you say he and Rey could just run away, and Rey never get to see her found family again? Yes Ben is her love but her friends matter as well and without them she would have suffered and it would be a satisying ending so not that. What about them going their seperate ways then reuniting at the very end on Tatooinne? That would have under cut the momemnt of Rey finally finding her own identity and having that closure that the series has built to. Face it, writing his survival would be very very hard to pull off in a satisying way. 

Okay so I have shipped these two since near the beginning of season 3 and honestly think in their best bits are one of the best couples on the show but this argument is not based on this. My argument is based on story telling people!

Rebecca's growth in the show has been about her letting go of fantasies and embracing the reality of herself (including accepting she needs help and to get better). Nathaniel arc seems to be heading in a similar direction with him already dealing with childhood trauma and his own personal demons/flaws to improve himself along the way releasinv that his life before was an unrealistic fantasy land free from complications. This is something we don't see with Josh or Greg with Joshs journey being to just grow the hell up and Greg's being to have confidence in himself to allow progression. Therefore I think it would make logical sense for Nathaniel and Rebecca to end up together as their journeys mimic each other perfectly.

Also smaller point, Josh isn't good enough for Rebecca, he was horrid to her, Rebecca isn't good enough for Greg she was horrid to him, Nathaniel matches Rebecca the most. (Anyone who would like to talk to me about his treatment of her at points (which is awful I'm not excusing it) please be reminded of how Rebecca treated Greg at points or how see treated Josh yes I'm aware there is mental illness there but the point of the s3 finale was Rebecca realising that she is still responsible)

Okay, I’m a bit confused as to some writing choice here. Firstly I don’t get what Mattie meant by it’s too late, initially, I thought it meant she had had an abortion and I was thinking that would make sense I wouldn’t be made (if dealt with correctly quite happy). However, this isn’t the case. The second explanation is that their relationship is too broken to which I say WTF?! He had a momentary lapse in judgement due to shock which I think is fair given his relationship with his own father and I thought given the stuff earlier in the season Mattie would be unlikely to resent him for this. So what is going on with that exchange?!! 

On a side note did anyone notice how the scene with Leo and Sam mirrored Karen’s final moments with Sam (saving him then leaving him and telling him to go to Joe). This has two significances, it sets up Sam to be in a position where he wants to re-enact Karen’s sacfrice and distract others from danger (what he tries with the wrench) but also could be seen as Leo being paternal and therefore suggests that the baby thing will be okay.

How good have the monologues been this season?! Here are some of my favs that have stuck in my head

Mattie about her guilt for day zero

Niska about fate and signs and how they mean nothing 

Leo about how David regretted saving him

Max’s prayer to David

Laura’s interview in the finale

Karen about how she can’t be a proper mum

Leo’s goodbye to Mia

Mattie about her feelings about her life (finale)

Right here are my thoughts on the synth/human hybrid and Odi/V plot line. Thoughts on the rest here. 

I can kinda buy the synth blood thing from the idea that it acts in the same way UV does and alters human DNA. 

However, I don’t really get the point of it. The only person it’s relevant to imo is Leo as other synths aren’t producing gametes to be able to reproduce so can’t pass on their genetics

The Leo/Mattie baby thing. I like the idea of a baby because it gives another avenue to explore the issues Leo has with David and because it would link the Elsters and Hawkins as one family and would give Mattie the chance to create life that doesn’t destroy lives (self-redeeming kinda thing). HOWEVER I am unsure because it would only be a quarter synth (human + half/’half) and I don’t know how it would different from a human given the only weird trait Leo has is maybe faster healing. Also I don’t like the way Leotilda is being treated and actually want to see the couple I have shipped for years be happy given how much them being in a relationship makes sense yet their plotline is a bit dodgy and I don’t really get why Mattie said it’s too late (answers please)

The fact that Odi is dead was expected but hurt

What has happened to Niska exactly? Answers please

Here are my thoughts on the Mia/Max/Laura political plotline. My thoughts on the rest of the episode are here

I really liked this part of the episode, it was amazing

I get why Mia had to die and while it broke my heart it made sense, was good for the plot and lead to some good raw emotion from other characters (especially Leo and Sophie). 

Sam what the fuck are you doing?! Seriously I’m so pissed at Sam’s actions

I wanted to see  the public reaction to Laura’s leak as surely this should have an impact on people’s actions

Will Mattie be arrested now?? I don’t know what will happen there and I need a season 4

I loved the way Max was ‘fighting’ in that solo scene as it is completely defensive as in he is only blocking blows not giving them and synth fighting is just awesome now