Someone New
George Russell/Max Verstappen
Rated E, 6k words, 1/1
Feminization; 2025-2026 season; Porn With Feelings; Emotional hurt/comfort
Read on AO3
âIâll be nice and do all the talking, howâs that? Only have to let me read you. You only have to be good, Max. You can do that, yes?â
Maxâs lip twitched against Georgeâs hand, his chin jerking slightly.
âGood boy,â he breathed, and licked over his lips, giving a second of silence before he spoke on, âor is it good girl youâd prefer?â
Maxâs hands, which had been gathered in his lap, curled in the fabric of Georgeâs shirt, seized. His eyes widened, something close to panic flashing through them.
âAh,â George hummed, smiling. There. The hand that wasnât at Maxâs lips moved to brush a gentle caress down his thigh. âI thought as much. Thatâs all right, then. Iâm all right with that. Had my doubts, to be honest with you.â
It hadnât been all that hard to guess after their last time together. Not when Max writhed when he was praised, when he was called pretty, not when his voice got high when Georgeâs hands lingered at his nipples a little too long. It made everything make sense to some degree.
Or: George catches a glimpse of a part of Max he doesnât know. Turns out, itâs a pretty important part.
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Gaxfest summer prompts day 5: feminization. thank you @gaxfest for this fun event!
written as a gift for @theshippingcontainer
thank you so very much @choneysuns for beta-ing and @arsenicjade for the support!!
itâs just forehead sweat. that stain on the carpet is unrelated. donât mind the spontaneous ovulation or two separate times that i cried from my eyes or the seventeen times i cried from my thighs
i like to pretend that i love you all equally but it simply isnât true. none of you hold a fucking candle to @russthappen
this fic made me see god and god told me that i am not getting into heaven but that danny definitely is for doing the lordâs work (feminizing male athletes in rpf)
iâve given out gifts of fics that ppl requested but this???????????????????????????????? Are You Kidding Me?????????????????,,?,,
what the fuck.
drop everything youâve ever considered doing and read this, read it right now, sit down, ignore your children, quit your jobâI DONT CARE
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đ§đŞ 16.07.2026 | F1 Grand Prix of Belgium: Media Day
Francorchamps, Belgium. 16 Jul, 2026. Oscar Piastri, during the Formula 1 Moet & Chandon Belgian Gp 2026. Credit: Marc Fleury / Alessio Morgese / Alamy live news
I'm really glad you're feeling better, love you âĽď¸
we are attempting to be calmer and less insane about everything. we are going to hold fewer grudges.
there was a plan in place to completely separate and start a whole new account and yesterday in the death tube it really struck me how self-centered i was being and how unnecessary it all was.
we shall have a good weekend and a most wonderful spa race!!!!!!!
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You don't know how much I expected you to bring back Silver Linings.
Really one of my favorite russtappen fics and I can't wait for an upcoming update.
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i brought it back before i finished polishing because it isnât fair to you or to me to hold this weird standard over my own head. fuck it dude we can read fanfic and have fun and i can edit and fix things as we go eh? have a good friday babe
i saw god in the mri bc the music machine played hozier and i realized i wanted to play with @russthappen more than i wanted to be pissed about a child harassing me.
i have a bunch of different blogs. yall forget im 30. i made my first tumblr account in 2012. i will go play on them when this one makes me sad.
letâs not pretend i have my wits about me, i'm very sensitive and ridiculous.
silver linings is back up. i'm going to chill out for a little bit.
I'm really sorry for bothering you and maybe you had already answered to this question but I really wanted to ask what happened to your work Silver Linings on ao3? It is kind of my Roman empire
But obviously no pressure or anything like this just really wanted to know is there any hope that we'll see it again
Anyway thank you for your works hope you doing good and wish you all the best you're an incredible writer
The way y'all constantly snub Franco from the age gap yaoi discourse is criminal. My man literally tried to shoot his shot with a man 18 years older in a conferece (The spaghetti date) fail miserably and then, somehow, still managed to manifest a private jet ride alone with him, speaking about the whole thing like it was a self-insert fanfic... and for what? For you guys to pretend he doesn't exist? He works so hard to get Lewis's attention (and love), itâs borderline embarrassing at this point...
Please put some respect on my Argentinian twink, heâs just a boy standing in front of his idol, trying to get into his pants
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George Russell/Max Verstappen: Streamer!Max, Bottom!Max, Driver!George
Rating: Explicit
Length: ~5k
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The team might as well have asked George to tear out his own heart and hand that over, too.
He fought for every lap. He stood on the top step. He held the trophy, sticky with champagne and victory, hands trembling with adrenaline, as the team roared around him. Marcus cheered on the radio with him, even Toto joined in. Mechanics clapped him on the back, and for a few precious minutes the world felt earned. Then it all unraveled.
Somehow it was worse that the trophy stayed in the garage, still gleaming under the fluorescent lights as if mocking him. It wasnât his anymore, silently changing ownership after the disqualification handed the win to Lewis.Â
They might as well have carved the trophy straight out of Georgeâs chest, still slick with the blood, sweat, and tears he had poured into the race. And it wasnât even his fault.
Totoâs grim expression, Marcusâs clipped apology, the engineers suddenly fascinated by the floorânone of it helped. His side of the garage had gone quiet too fast, too polite, as though grief required hush.
By the time he made it back to his driverâs room, the adrenaline had gone sour in his veins. He felt hollowed out, nauseous, like someone had stolen all the air.
He didnât bother waiting for the full debrief. What was the point? There was nothing left to say, nothing left to fix. By the time the press releases hit the wire, his flight was already taxiing down the runway.
The jet was too quiet. Aleix had tried to say something reassuring on the tarmac, but George had waved him off, polite as always. He could still feel the dull ache in his jaw from where he had been clenching it through security.
He didnât even put on his team kit, changing into his oversized black jumper instead; he just slumped against the window, arms folded tight, watching Belgium fall away in grey ribbons beneath the wing.
The flight home to Nice was short, though it stretched like penance. He scrolled aimlessly through his team statements, social media posts, a photograph of Lewis hoisting his trophy, the caption already trending.
He turned the phone over and set it face down on the tray table. He told himself it was fine. It was merely a technical infringement. It wasnât his fault, just numbers on a sheet. It was the strategy that had won the race, that had beaten everyone else, even if they took every point away.Â
But he had won, for an hour. He had won. And that hour didnât count for anything.
By the time the car dropped him at his building, dusk had set in, the Mediterranean flickering dull silver beyond the harbour. The city still glittered because Monaco never stopped pretending it was beautiful, but the light hit wrong tonight, too harsh on his tired eyes.
He went straight to the built-in wine fridge, its hum the only sound in the flat. The rows of bottles gleamed in ordered symmetry, labels facing forward, every one a memento from somewhere that had once mattered.
Near the bottom sat a single bottle he had bought himself, years ago, for a reason that now felt embarrassingly optimistic. A vintage champagne, too expensive for what it was. He had told himself he would open it when he won Monaco. He had never even taken it to the circuit.
He stared at it for a long time before pulling it free. The foil had dulled with age; a film of dust coated the glass neck. No one had given him this one. He associated it with no team, no podium ceremony. It was just a promise he had made to himself, and never quite kept.
He took the bottle to the counter and leaned there, thumb tracing the seam in the foil. He twisted the wire cage loose, thumbed the cork until it gave a hollow pop. The sound filled the whole flat, too loud for the hour. George drank straight from the bottle.
The first swallow bit cold.The bubbles stung going down, too sharp, too bright for the roomâs heavy silence. It didnât taste like celebration at all. The second went down easier.
George drifted through the flat like a ghost, past the tidy living room, the newly folded laundry, the medals he pretended not to care about. Everything was in its place except him.Â
Halfway through his celebration bottle, the bitterness started to slip. His shoulders loosened. The fizz rushed to his head, swirling faintly behind his eyes. It was the kind of warmth that didnât comfort so much as blur his thoughts, numb him to the memory.Â
He sat down on the sofa, the bottle dangling from his fingertips, watching the reflection of the ceiling light wobble across the champagneâs surface. The air smelled faintly of salt and city stone, of Monaco pretending to sleep.
He told himself he was angry. He was furious. That was why his chest hurt. That was why he couldnât sit still. He drank again, longer this time, until the taste dulled. The room tilted a little at the edges, like a camera lens shifting out of focus.
The champagne ran out too quickly. He found the same bottle of bourbon he had sworn he would never touch again after Silverstone. He swallowed without tasting and drank again.
Somewhere in the blur he thought about Spa, about the rain on his visor, the perfect start, the radio crackling with Wow! Well done. Awesome work.
He remembered how light he had felt on the podium, the sudden weightlessness that only winning ever gave him. It curdled now, heavy and tainted in his chest.
He hated how quiet the flat was. He hated how his mind replayed every corner, every lap, every mistake he had pounced on. He hated that he didnât have anyone he could talk to about it.Â
Alex wasnât fighting at the front. Lewis had been his biggest competition, and now held the trophy in question. George didnât want to think about how that fight didnât matter, in the end. George got nothing but an empty chest, an empty spot in his trophy case. He took another drink, long enough that it burned.
He sat on the edge of the sofa, numb, with the bottle between his knees, staring at nothing in particular. His mind whirled with podium memories that counted for nothing.Â
The bottle was nearly empty when he found himself laughing without any idea why. He set it on the coffee table, still grinning faintly, and leaned back.
He wasnât even sure what he was looking for when he picked his phone back up. He wanted something familiar, maybe. Something noisy enough to drown out the sound of his own thoughts.
He typed âSuperMaxâ into the search bar before he could question it. The name popped up immediately, live thumbnail, title blaring.
âFORMULA ONE SPA GP REACTIONâ
âPAIN, BEER, and BAD OPINIONS.â
George barked a laugh. Of course he was still live. The universe had a sick sense of humour. He hesitated, thumb hovering. The chat counter caught his eye, still in the thousands, hours later. The world narrowed to the warm churn in his blood and the familiar name glowing on the screen.
He should have turned the phone face down again. He didnât. He hit Join.Â
Maxâs low, slightly slurred laugh came through before the image, filling the room like honey.Â
George looked over Maxâs familiar setup, sim rig not in use, headset a little crooked, pint glass half-full. The chat scrolled at a speed he couldnât read, a blur of usernames and emojis. Max was laughing at something, shoulders shaking, the sound spilling out of him light and easy.
âLiterally, disqualified for bottoming too much, I canâtââ Maxâs laughter filled the silence, tipping his head back against his headrest.Â
ââŚso Iâm just saying, yeah, Russell had balls when no one else did, but Mercedes didnât ace maths, I guess. Unlucky, that one.â Max grinned at the camera. âYou hate to see it. You really do.â
He continued reading chat between long drinks from his pint glass. Georgeâs eyes lazily trailed down Maxâs throat.Â
âListen, mate, Iâm not saying Mercedes didnât deserve the win. Iâm saying Russell didnât deserve to have it taken away.â
George toasted his phone in agreement with someone who was not in his sitting room.Â
The camera steadied. Max was leaning on one elbow, headset slightly askew, pint glass in frame. The lighting in his flat was warm and uneven, shadows bending around his jaw. His cheeks were flushed, hair pushed back and untidy.
âIâm just saying,â Max continued, gesturing loosely with the glass, âthat man made the one-stop work, and you canâtâyou canât justârob him like that.â His gestures grew more animated. âItâs not like losing a place, or something. He goes from twenty-five points to nothing.â
The chat was a blur of emojis, inside jokes, agreement, dissent. George couldnât read a word. He could barely breathe.
Max leaned closer to the camera, voice dropping conspiratorially. âI said it once, and Iâll say it again, one and a half kilos is not enough for Hamilton to catch him before the end.â
George snorted before he could stop himself with a bitter, choked sound.
Max laughed again, an open, fond sound that cut straight through him. âDonât look at me like that, chat. Iâm right, and you know it.â
He tipped back the last of his drink and reached offscreen for another bottle.
Max went on, sipping his pint. âStill, fair play to him, that was a proper drive. Shame about the DQ.â He shrugged, eyes flicking to the chat. âWhat? No, Iâm not doing a dramatic reading of the FIA statement, weâd be here all night.â
George let out a breath he didnât realise he had been holding. It wasnât mockery. It was just Max being Max, unfiltered and alive. The ache behind Georgeâs ribs eased, relieved, still warm with something like wanting. He turned the phone sideways and leaned back, the glow of the screen painting his face.
Max was talking about strategy now, hands moving in wild arcs. George felt the bourbon settle deep in his chest, dulling the anger but sharpening everything else. It was easier watching from a distance, letting Max fill the silence.Â
âItâs the longest track on the calendar, youâre racing through the forest, mate, how fucking sick is that?â he paused, taking another slow sip, eyes flicking up with chat messages. âIt has the most interesting corners, the most elevation changesâfuck, even when it breaks your heart,â Max said, leaning towards the camera. âItâs the best track on the calendar. If you donât finishâwell, at least it looks dramatic.â
George snorted softly. He took another swig. At least he had looked dramatic.Â
Max laughed at something in chat just then, the timing perfect enough to feel like an answer. âJust because I lived there practically my whole life does not make me biased!â he argued with mock-offence. âTake that back.â
The stream rolled on, Max still arguing with chat about tyre strategy and the eternal mystery of why anyone trusted Ferrariâs pit wall. The bourbon was almost gone. George tipped the bottle, watching the amber line sink, and thumbed open the donation page before he could think better of it. The familiar box blinked up at him, waiting. He shouldnât. He really, really shouldnât.Â
The bourbon said otherwise.
George stared at the phone, thumb tapping the table. He was too drunk to stop himself, too sober to pretend he didnât want to hear more.
His stomach buzzed with the fizz still lingering from the champagne, but his head was vibrating with something else entirely.
His fingers hovered over the keypad, meaning to type 63 out of reflex, muscle memory. But the screen doubled slightly when he blinked, and somehow there was another 3.
633.00 stared back at him.Â
âThatâs⌠stupid,â he muttered. He tried to delete one of the threes, missed, and hit Confirm instead. The confirmation ping chimed bright and cheery, far too late.
George blinked again, then shrugged. âFuck it.â
A few minutes later, the donation alert chimed loud enough to make Max flinch.
âHold onâhold on.â He squinted at the screen, mouth already twitching. âWhat the hell is thisâsix hundred and thirty-three? Euros? I must be drunker than I thought, mate, I canât be seeing this rightâŚâ
Chat erupted in a storm of âWHAT THE HELLâ messages and emojis.
Max blinked, then barked a startled laugh. âAll right, who fat-fingered their rent payment?â He checked the name on the donation list, and the laughter stalled. âFromâoh, for fuckâs sake, Williams, again?!â
He sat back in his chair, visibly trying not to grin, visibly failing. âYouâyouâve gone completely mad, mate.â Max took a long drink, eyes still flicking toward the chat as if looking for confirmation that this was real.
âWhat am I supposed to do with that, huh? Retire early? Buy a wind tunnel?â
The comments were spinning faster now in a blur of âno way,â âabsolute madlad,â â???,â âtake it off for sugar daddy,â and Max was laughing again, helpless this time.
âOh, you lot are feral. Stop! I am not saying thank-you with my shirt off.â He rubbed his forehead, pink-cheeked, some mixture of mortified and delighted. âBut seriously, whoever you areâI hope that was an accident, but if not⌠youâve just paid my rent and my bad-decision tax for the month.â
He lifted his glass toward the camera, eyes bright. âProost, Williams. Crazy bastard. What even was your question, didnât even lookââ
George smiled faintly where he sat, head heavy against the back of the sofa. Watching Max fluster was better than any champagne.
The chat detonated in emojis before he had even read the question. Max leaned closer, voice wobbling with laughter.
ââWho blows more, Mercedes or the FIA?ââ
He broke, laughing hard enough to have to set his glass down. âNo, no, thatâsâthatâs too much, mate!â He wiped his eyes with the back of his hand, grinning wide. âYouâre gonna get me banned, Williams. You canâtâyou canât ask that!â
The chat was already eating it up, with messages of crying emojis, âđđđâ filling the feed, people tagging clips.
Max tried and failed to pull himself together. âJesus Christ. I donât even know how to answer that. Theyâre bothâthey bothâblow exceptionally, howâs that?â
He snorted, shaking his head. âFucking hell, mate. I swear, youâre singlehandedly trying to end my career, arenât you?â He took a long sip from his glass before muttering, âOr you just want to get me banned from races.â He raised his eyebrows threateningly but George just found it silly.Â
âWhoever you are, Williams, youâve got good taste,â he said, still smiling. âAnd terrible financial judgement.â
The chat flooded with heart emojis, Max rubbing a hand over his scruff and laughing.
George set his phone down beside the empty bottle, heart pounding and warm with the kind of stupid satisfaction that only came after the fact. He knew he would regret it in the morning. He also knew he wouldnât take it back.
âAll right, next question before I dig myself a deeper hole,â Max said. âSomeone ask something fun that wonât get me banned!â
A donation chimed, Maxâs glassy eyes scanning the message. âYou guys are relentlessâah, okay, hereâs one. Thank you, Maria, for the twenty! âIf you could take any driverâs seat for a weekend, whose would it be?ââ
He pursed his lips, thinking. âSee, you would think I would say Ricciardo. But there is so much pressure at Red Bull, and if I only had a weekend I would want to enjoy myself.â He paused to reposition in his chair. George noticed his shirt riding up and couldnât tear his eyes away from the thin strip of bare skin.Â
âYou know who looks like heâs enjoying himself? Alonso. If I had one weekend, I would go to Aston Martin.â
The chat exploded with laughing emojis and hearts. Max shook his head. âNo, no, not that kind of enjoying himself. Behave.â
He took another sip, cheeks flushed. âYeah, no, putting up with Lawrence would be a day at the beach compared to my dad,â he laughed. âIâll take an Aston Martin seat any time.â
George stumbled a little at that. His dad? He wondered, briefly, what the man was like, if he had the same easy smirk, the same sharp edges. If he was anything like his own gem of a father.
He pushed the thought out of his head. He had just spent a weekend in Kingâs Lynn for Benjyâs birthday and survived it, stormy demeanor and all.
So George had some daddy issuesâsue him.
Max was still talking about Aston Martin. âYou guys are so harsh on Lance. Iâm not changing my answer. Alonso has had the most weekends anyway, he might enjoy the break.â
Another donation chimed. Max took a long drink, waiting for the animation to finish. âOkay, thank you, jumping_spider33, for the ten. Whatâs nextââWhat team do you think parties hardest after a win?ââ
âThis kind of depends on the drivers, doesnât it?â He squinted at the screen. âI mean, I bet Gasly went all out when he won Monza with AlphaTauri. And Norrisâyeah, see, thatâs what Iâm sayingâNorris has the whole DJ thing. Heâs been there for so long, mate, Iâm sure McLaren went insane after Miami. The teams, though, thatâs a bit harder.â
He laughed at something in chat. âZak Brown would fist pump if McLaren won a driverâs championship. Mate, heâd be so embarrassing.â
George couldnât help laughing with him, both at the truth of it and at how disarmingly adorable Max was when he giggled like that.
âFerrari tries, but they get emotional halfway through and start crying, mate. Itâd be a sob-fest half an hour later.â
Maxâs voice had gone warmer, carrying that little lilt that made everything sound like an inside joke. âMercedesââ he paused for effect, raising his glass, ââMercedes celebrates by running diagnostics.â
The chat howled. Max winced dramatically, hand to heart. âSee, now youâre making me feel bad! Okay, okayâfine, Mercedes can party when they want to. They just schedule it three weeks in advance and send out a calendar invite.â
He grinned into the camera, eyes crinkling. âIâm kidding. Sort of.â
Another donation chimed. Max set his drink down, adjusting his headset while he read.
âThanks, formula_girl22, for the tenâbut no, I will not be ranking driver thirst traps.â
Chat erupted in protest, scrolling so fast it blurred.
âYouâre all horrible,â Max laughed. âIf I look at one thirst trap, my algorithmâs fucked. You know this.â He paused, taking another sip. âOkay, okayâmaybe itâs a little fucked already.â He threw his head back, laughing, and George felt that sound reverberate behind his ribs.
âLike, everyone can agree Leclerc is beautiful.â Max paused to read the chat. âNo, objectively beautiful. Like a cat is beautiful.â
George frowned faintly. He didnât really see it.
âSainz has that rugged prince-charming thingâthe hair, you know?â Max ruffled his own in imitation.
George snorted. He shouldnât have found that as attractive as he did.
âPiastriâs a baby,â Max complained, rolling his eyes. âIâm not ranking infants.â
George laughed too hard, suddenly, and the sound startled him.
âRicciardo is definitely handsome. And that smile, have you seen his smile?â Max groaned, closing his eyes.Â
George felt a strange sense of envy for something he had never even considered.Â
âAlonso definitely was hot,â Max continued, âIâd say heâs more of a DILF now. I think he is shorter than I amâhold on.â
He pulled up a height chart. âMate, Fernando is 1,71! No way am I leaning down that much.â
George bit the inside of his cheek, grinning as Max scanned the table.Â
âAh, Daniel is 1,79. He seemed taller to me,â he said wistfully. âYeah, Iâm like, 1,81?â he described. âYou lotâoh, my God,â he laughed. âNo, I am not lying about my height for stream. You can measure pixels when I am standing again.â
George was taller than Max and Daniel both, at least. He sniffed indignantly. He imagined looking down into Maxâs eyes, just a little. It startled him how much he wanted those eyes laughing in close range.
He tried not to think of leaning in and kissing those lips.Â
âNo, see, Albon and Ocon are the tallest,â Max continued, cursor circling their names. âTheyâre both 1,86.â He squinted, leaning towards the screen. âRussellâs 1,85. Have you seen that video of Alex talking aboutââ he giggled, the alcohol fuzzing his humour as much as it was stoking the flames of Georgeâs mix of anticipation and anxiety at seeing himself discussed.Â
âChat! Iâm talking about height for wholesome reasons. Get your minds out of the gutter!â
Without warning, Max opened a new tab. âI mean, Albon is funny. Not really my type, honestly.â
A slew of images of his best friend flew by, some of the popular reaction images making George snicker.Â
âYou guys are crazy,â Max said, typing georgw russell hotâ into the search bar. âThere is a clear winner here.â
The words hit George like a punch. He sat bolt upright as his photos filled the screen, shirtless, photoshoots, training images, his own face sifting through Maxâs fingers.
Max lifted a hand to the camera, laughing. âSee? I rest my case.â
Georgeâs pulse thundered. The laughter on stream felt too close, too private, too knowing. He couldnât tell if the heat crawling up his neck was humiliation or something worse.
Max pulled up Georgeâs post from the Grand Caymans. âIâm sorry, are we looking at the same person, here? Look at him. Heâs like a Greed god, or something. Jesus.â He clenched his teeth like it killed him to even look.Â
âYou guys need standardsâyes, okay, someone knows what Iâm talking about.â Max scrolled to the photo of George in a skin-tight sun shirt from the same post. âFucking Christ, even with a shirt on, you can see how hot he is,â he groaned. âJust imagine waking up to those abs, those hands. His girlfriend is so fucking lucky, I swear.â
Georgeâs brain melted out of his ears. Max thought he was fit???
Was George even allowed to hear this, without Max knowing? He felt like he was spying on someoneâs personal preferences. It made him feel dirty. It also turned him on a shocking amount.Â
Too bad Max didnât know George no longer had a girlfriend, having split with Carmen before the summer. Oh, the joys of relationships as a Formula One driver.Â
Max was still talking. âDante, shut the fuck up about Hamilton. Hamilton is mid at best.â
George barked a laugh in disbelief before he could stop himself. Max was chaos incarnate, dragging him through every emotion on some bollocksed speed run, and George couldnât look away.
âOkay, okay, we can objectify more drivers next time,â Max said, expression softening into a grin. âIâve got to sleep at some point. Yes, back to normal stream schedule. Iâll see you lot on Tuesday. Good night, sleep tightâŚâ he giggled once more, ââŚdonât let the FIA bite.â
The stream cut to black.
George stared at the empty screen, the reflection of his own face faint in the glass. He exhaled in relief, or something like it. But it didnât last.Â
The flat felt wrong without Maxâs voice in it, too still, maybe. He set the phone down, but his pulse wouldnât settle. And then his phone dinged.
You have 1 new Whisper.
He squinted at the screen. What the fuck was a Whisper?
George fumbled through the Twitch app, thumb too heavy, eyes not quite cooperating. Everything seemed to double and blur, letters dancing over each other. He really had drunk too much.
Eventually, he found the tab labeled Whispers. And there, sitting neatly at the top of his inbox, was a name that nearly stopped his heart.
SuperMax.
He tapped it open.
Whispers
SuperMax
hey just wanted to check, did u mean to send 633
George just stared. Max had messaged him, privately. Max had looked at that ridiculous donation, thought about it, and checked in, purely for Georgeâs sake.Â
His stomach swooped. He couldnât think of what to say. Every possible answer sounded insane or needy or both. His thumbs hovered uselessly over the keyboard while his mind scrambled to catch up with his heart.
williams_racing63
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He hit send before he could overthink it. The reply came almost immediately.
SuperMax cool, just wanted to make sure. thanks so much again, really x
George blinked at the little âxâ at the end, at those few pixels of intimacy. He stared until his eyes stung, unsure whether to laugh or cry or throw the phone across the room.
How could someone who could hold thousands in the palm of his hand want to reach out to him?
He sank back against the sofa, the bourbon-heavy haze giving way to a strange, fragile warmth that filled his chest until it ached.
He kept blinking at that little x, like maybe it would disappear if he stared long enough. His mind spun in useless circles, trying to land on the right combination of words, something light, casual, not deranged.
He typed âno worriesâ. Then deleted it.
âall good!â Delete.
âyouâre welcome!â God, no. He sounded like someoneâs gran.
He rubbed a hand over his face, groaning. How did he talk to people again? How did normal human interaction work?
The typing bubble appeared. His heart jumped into his throat.
SuperMax
hey btw why 63? u always donate that lol
George froze. His brain blanked completely. How many donations did this man get in a week? And he had still clocked the number. His number.
George swallowed hard, palms sweating. He wanted to delete his account and go live in a monastery.
He typed one thing, deleted it. Eventually he settled on the truth, like an idiot.Â
williams_racing63
my favourite driverâs numberÂ
He stared at the screen, immediately regretting every word. He might as well have shouted that it was Benjyâs number. The reply came a moment later.Â
SuperMax
ha nice. we can stan russell together then
George set the phone down on the coffee table and pressed the heels of his hands against his eyes.
Who the fuck was Stan.Â
After a short panic and some drunk searching, George had translated what Max actually meant. George was grinningâGod help himâlike an idiot. It was stupid. He was drunk. It meant nothing. Except it didnât feel like nothing.
That shouldâve been the end of it. George shouldâve turned off his phone, gone to bed, slept off the champagne and regret.
He sat there, watching the chat thread like it might sprout something else, heartbeat still thudding behind his ribs. The flat had gone utterly still. It was just George and the buzz of the phone in his hand and the faint fizz of alcohol in his veins. Then, the screen lit again.
SuperMax
btw u didnât have to send that much tonight
appreciate it though
hope ur alright x
George stared until the words blurred together. He shouldnât have felt it like this, like a hit straight to the chest. He wasnât all right, not even close. Everything he typed either sounded like a confession or a lie.
williams_racing63 bit of a shit day if im honest
Three dots appeared, disappeared, appeared again.
SuperMax
ah that sucks
if i could send u a drink i would đť
though judging by ur donation ur probably already there đ
George snorted a laugh. The cursor blinked at him like a heartbeat, taunting.
williams_racing63
ha maybe a bit
depends what youâre pouring?
He read it twice and sent it anyway. It was too much. Definitely too much.Â
He told himself he only wanted the typing bubble to appear so he could know Max was awake, not because he craved the attention. The buzz in his chest was definitely only the champagne.
SuperMax ha, good answer. beer for honesty, gin for courage. which do u need tonight?
Georgeâs breath caught. His brain offered restraint; his fingers refused.
williams_racing63 courage sounds more fun. reckon iâve had enough honesty for one night
He watched the words appear in the box like they belonged to someone else. The typing bubble popped up again. Every second stretched.
SuperMax
good answer
always did like a brave one
George felt the air punch out of him. He should stop now. He absolutely shouldnâtâ
His thumbs were already moving.
williams_racing63 braveâs easier with good company
He hit send before he could think. The glow of the screen lit the curve of his stupid, traitorous smile.
SuperMax brave and smooth tonight, arent we đ
Georgeâs smile widened before his brain could stop it. He should say something neutral, something that didnât sound like he was flirting with a stranger over Twitch messages.
williams_racing63 thatâs the bourbon then
He was shameless and stupidly easy. He watched the typing bubble pop up almost immediately.
SuperMax id say keep drinking, but im not sure i could handle that
The air left Georgeâs lungs. He shouldnât read into that. He knew he shouldnât. But the line curled through him all the same, teasing and soft, like Max had just leaned close enough for the words to land against his ear. It made something inside him twist.
williams_racing63
guess weâll have to test your limits sometimeÂ
His thumbs had moved before his brain caught up. When he realised what he had sent, it was too late. There was no taking it back.
He could almost hear Alexâs voice in his head. You absolute idiot.
The typing bubble blinked with its animation.Â
SuperMax
ha. i think wed both be in trouble if that happenedÂ
George stared at the reply, pulse hammering against his ribs. He wasnât sure if Max meant it as a joke, a warning, or an invitation. He stared at the words until they blurred. The room felt too still, his heartbeat too loud. The typing bubble blinked again.
SuperMax
alright, braveheart, i should get some sleep before i say something worse đ
goodnight, williams x
They were just words on a screen, but George felt the smile from them. Max always had that lazy warmth, and it came across in his words, too. His mouth ached from smiling back.
williams_racing63 night, max
He didnât wait for a reply. He set the phone face down on the pillow beside him and lay back, staring at the ceiling until his eyes closed.
The echo of Maxâs voice filled the dark, teasing and raspy. His low giggle made George fist his sheets, biting his lip. It followed him under, soft as the glow from the screen, and when he finally drifted off, he was still smiling.
Also yes, of course, itâs not my ask but what you said is what I want to hear, because itâs your feelings and if anything, I canât do a lot, but what I can do is reassure you and offer you the many praises youâve earned from your work and time with these little interactions because youâre so precious!!!!! If silver linings needs a hiatus, so be it, we are lucky enough you have other projects, because as long as you keep writing I will be happy, but do not stress yourself!!!! Write what makes you happy!!!!!!!!
happiness aint even the calculus. itâs more like!?? i canât functionâso silver linings takes a backseat. how can i think happy happy fic thoughts when everything is broken?
canât. canât!!
love you. always love you. love everyone who has been so supportive. wish i could induce vomiting in a writing way that would result in happy silver linings words for everyone. canât.
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You have magic fingers and the burden of a brain too good for us, how come I get to enjoy your suffering and obsessing so much??? You get to be mother and father and you should Never stop
my stupid fingers are stupid all the time doing stupid shit like meandering off to do other stupid stuff
but thank you. i hope you get to suffer a little bit more