Why do you ask such impossible things?

So, I’ve made the really tough decision to leave Tumblr.

Every time I log on, I feel really sick, like physically sick. So much crap has happened on this site, and I just can’t handle the drama. I hate feeling like I’m pointless, so I’ve made the decision to completely leave.

I’m not… I already miss it so much. I miss all the people here, and the friends I’ve made. And I’m so sorry that some of those friendships have died, though lot for lack of me trying. My heart is literally breaking as I write this, because I miss you all so much and I’m going to miss you and your beautiful hearts. But I have to do what’s best for me.

You can still find me on Skype (deafhawkeye).

I won’t be deleting my blogs, but I won’t be logging in anymore.

I love you all so much, and have a wonderful and happy Christmas.

And, one last Mun photo, of me and fiancé.

I’m having lots of problems with Rev right now. Not the character, but mostly the blog.

So I want to make changes.

The question is, do I want to make her a new blog, or just try to revamp what I have?

I don’t like the Marvel Fandom very much anymore. I feel like after Cap 2, it died and then.... it got really nasty.

There’s so much hate and meanness and it’s not right. And so many of the people I love are gone and it sucks. And I’ve lost friends and I’m not sure what I did to deserve that.

And I feel like the whole Marvel RP community has become incredibly selective. And it sucks, because I’ve had this character for almost 3 years and I feel like, in that time, I’ve never fit in. And then I found a few good people, and they were pushed out by drama and shit, and it hurt.

And I don’t know if I want to stay here, because no one (aside from a few people) want to write with me anymore.

Which means unfollowing.

Sometimes, I feel like few people actually want me here.

There are asks that I send that get ignored, and it hurts. Friends I once had... they barely talk to me anymore. But I still love them, because that’s what I do. I give my whole heart to everybody. I don’t keep anything for myself. I love everyone with such fierceness. And when people walk away, when people stop talking to me, it hurts. My heart shatters, every time.

But I can’t stop. I can’t stop falling in love with each and every one of you. Even if I don’t know your name, I love you.

And when you leave, because everyone does, my heart will break, and I will miss you.